Mixed emotions

A fair bit has happened this weekend. Henry and I viewed a gorgeous place where we can get married if we chose to, then I got back on Sunday and was saying goodbye to Ben who is off to India today for 5 weeks, before I knew it. Then I found out that Canterbury hadn't accepted me, so I felt really gutted.
It was one of those moments when the world drops from underneath your feet. Though it isn't the only thing I can do or the only place I've applied to, it was my preferred choice so I'm not too happy. But life goes on and at some point Lincoln will call and I will have to trek across the country for another interview. Or maybe not. My sister told me a story about one of her friends not getting on too well with GTTR. We shall see what is going on...
I think I have over estimated my ability. I realise that trying to cram secondary and primary education in one year is too much for me. Difficult for anyone. Especially me...

Exam stresses and strains

Exams are going well, thank you to those who send their good lucks and ask how everything is going. I'm good, two down, one to go. Genesis tomorrow lunchtime and then I'm finished and off to Malvern to discuss wedding things and the such. I'm looking forward to a weekend off! :D

The chocolate spread saga

I have got a real problem with people who steal. It is a horrible habit and shows how petty some people can be. What kind of person steals chocolate spread and doesn't own up to it? What kind of person goes behind someone's back to use something that is not theirs?

Someone is lying and I have no way of finding out who, because I don't trust the people I live with. It may seem trival but its the kind of thing that gets to me. I need a CSI!!

It's happened before!

Nervous Laughter

This is the moment when I realise tomorrow is an important day. Just as I'm about to log off and shut down. There's not a lot more I can do. I have my first exam tomorrow morning and all I want to do is run away and hide!! The stress factor still gets me after years and years of doing this.

I hate the unknown. I can deal with stepping out in faith, but stepping into an exam room? That's where God really does hide His face. I don't know what's on that exam paper and hazarding a guess has got me in trouble before! There are a hundred things that could be on that paper. Argh! I have to stop! Though this is not the last time I will talk about exams it is the beginning of the trek towards graduation day.

6 exams, at least 15,000 words, 36 lectures (totalling 72 hours) and a Summer ball are ahead. I have 17+ weeks of hard work to finish my degree!

"For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord."

Romans 8v38,39

This speaks to me, I don't know what it says to you, I don't know if you believe in God or that someone knew they would have to die to save a people that had turned away.
Would you lay your life down for someone? Someone you love, hate or don't even know? One person did.

What does love mean to you?
For me love is found in the things I do for others and what they do for me. Those who spend time with me when they know they have a few things to be doing, someone who speaks wisdom into my life, someone who makes me smile whatever is happening, someone who welcomes me with open arms no matter how stupid I have been, someone who forgives and forgets. All of this means the world to me, I know there are a few people that this applies to, I know one person who means the world to me, and they know who they are.

Love is mysterious, so is God and getting to know them is a journey. Unconditional love can be found, you just have to take the first step....

It's blurry but you get the idea!

Wedding dresses and exams

Thursday was wedding dress day - infamous, slightly crazy but a lot of fun. I understand what some women say when the find 'the right dress', you know you could live in it if you were given a chance! I'm not going to describe it because I am a traditionalist when it comes to things like that and I know Henry likes to read this! No he is not going to see me until I walk down the isle (some times I make myself laugh!).
Back to Cheltenham tomorrow and exams starting tuesday, the stress is increasing. I've got to pack today and do lots of work! Ekk! Going back holds a mixture of feelings. I get to see the people I've spent the last 2 1/2 years of my life with but I'm leaving my family. The next few months are going to be full of highs and lows. Elation from finishing my degree and sadness of leaving that part of my life behind. Umm... I don't know whether I'm looking forward to it or not.

Charlie's Angels! We're all grown up, we're much more stylish and definitly more insane now
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How pretty are we?

Christmas Day 2005. Henry, Andy, Karen, Jude, Mike, me and Eva

6 grandchildren plus one!

Revision, writing and a day in school

I'm trying to revise, I'm also trying to write my dissertation. But I can't do either when all I want to do is sleep!

I spent yesterday at my old school, looking around, and observing lessons. I was welcomed with open arms and remembered by more members of staff than I care to count. The weirdest thing was being talked to like an adult by my old Headteacher. She actually listened to me and I never once felt scared! Mr Berry, the head of sixth form is a gossip! Still exactly the same as I remember him! He managed to indirectly call me dull though! The RE department has moved and shrunk and apparently I'll have no trouble getting a job, and neither will Henry :D Hazzar!

I promise I will post some pictures of Christmas etc, I just have to get to Cheltenham!

7 things...

To do before I die...
Get married
Have children
Teach others
Learn to drive
Go to Rome
Run a holiday camp
Ride a motorbike

Things I cannot do...
Become a Bishop
Install double glazing
Get a first in my degree
Let go of the past
Look good in a poncho
Date another man
Tolerate rudeness

Things I say most often...
I love you
Henry
Will you shut up
Dude
Oi
Sorry
Yeh

Books I love...
The Bible
Introduction to the Old Testament
The shock of your Life
Man and wife
The Shining
The Stories we could tell
The time travellers wife

Movies I could watch over and over
The Lion King
Romeo and Juliet
Mulan
The Little Mermaid
Chicago
Moulin Rouge
Mary Poppins

All time albums...
Ultimate Kylie
X and Y
Take that greatest hits
OST My best friends wedding
Mariah Carey's Christmas Album
The Greatest Musicals
Kelly Clarkson Breakaway

People to do this next...
Dad
Mum
Henry
Ben
Mandy
Andy
Aimie

I challenge you!

And New Year!

Very very good evening! Much better than last year, and I can remember most of it! The band that played were well practiced, and the food was really good! I've got a massive blister on my toe from dancing too hard!

Of course it was better than last year because henry was there, kissing me at midnight! Yeay, then one of the members of my old youth group decide to tell me that I'm getting married next year - which got a really funny reaction!