It really is all uphill!

For those of you who have ever watched Lee Evans Live in Scotland you'll know what I'm on about. Glasgow is huge!! And everywhere is up a gill! Not a small hill, but one you could kill yourself on if you fell over at the top! I know its not a pleasant thought, but its the only way I can describe how huge the hills are. The rest of Scotland is absolutely amazing - the views are incredible and you really can appreciate creation if you drive from Kilmarnock to Glasgow.
I've also been to Edinburgh and almost brought a purple furry coat, but I don't think anyone would've been impressed by my purchase, so I didn't waste my money. He rest of the time was spent catching up on all the sleep I lost over Christmas!
I hope my readers had a wonderful Christmas, now we all have to survive New Year! I won't be seeing Henry this evening, so I'm a little sad - lots. I've done my usual 400 texts in two weeks so now I have to start paying for the privilege of text!!
Drink and be merry!!

What's the next thing you've got to look forward to?

Well I fly to Glasgow tomorrow, to see Steve. I'm looking for ward to flying and to four days going around Scotland! Apparently the four days I have are filling up really fast! I know I'm going to Edinburgh and obviously Glasgow, but as for the rest of the time...only Steve knows!
Then I fly back on the 31st and go straight to the New Years Ball at my Church! After the first of Jan 2005 the next thing I'm really looking forward to is seeing my boyfriend! 12th Jan! I can't wait and I know its about 16 or so days away (all that eating has made my brain slow) but he phoned me yesterday and it made me miss him even more! There a time during the day when I want to get on a train and visit him, just so I can hug him. I know its sickening for all of you who are single. Believe me, there is a reason why you are! You are loved by many, whether you feel it or not and you don't need a bloke (or girl) to tell you that you are.
Anyway... What are you looking forward to the most?

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At Christmas time...

...well you know how the song goes! Good old Band Aid!! I can't believe I've been around the whole time thats been going on. It feels really weird! (Imagine what it feels like for the people who can actually remember the first release!).
Its Christmas Eve and I still don't feel like I'm going to enjoy Christmas. I'm struggling to understand that tomorrow is one of the best days of the year (my birthday comes a close second).
Anyway, I'm going to Scotland on Monday (although my days are confused) so I probably won't blog til after new year.
Have a good Chirstmas and an awesome new year! Remember what its really about...

Christmas Eve eve!

Oh dear, we're almost there! Its ten days since I last saw Henry - it feels like a lot longer and made worse by the fact that he sent me a letter! My sister said she'd under-estimated how much we like each other and I think I'm guilty of that too. I have been taken by surprise by my feelings. Its weird!
I was sitting in the same pub as my little brother as well yesterday, its less than two weeks till he hits 18 - yes I know he was drinking illegally, but theres not a lot I can do - the funny thing is that he woke up still drunk! Hey - I'm praying for him and his mates! 2 weeks...my oh my. Well I've already brought his birthday present and just need to think about getting him a card.
I need to buy my housemates secret santa present as well.
I had an encounter with James today - which was weird. I haven't seen and spoken to him outside of the Boar for ages. He's always been at work - and what did we talk about? Work! And Christmas. Anyway, less of that. I also saw Dan too. Its been a day of surprises, and I could well be going to the pub tonight... again. I'm not an alcoholic, I just have a lot of friends!
I'm going to check out the pictures of my boyfriend on My sisters blog!! Yeay!!

Gloomy Essex - made better by the fact that my social life kicked off 5 hours after I arrived!!

I've been at home (EH-SIX, EH-SIX!!) for less than 2 days and I've already been to the pub twice and told my life story (over the last three months) at least four times!
There are a few people that I haven't seen but I did manage to walk into the local whetherspoons and still know the bar staff!! Ah James - where would I be without someone who tries to serve me everytime I go to the bar? I am enjoying being at home but when my sister came home and showed me pictures of Henry all I wanted to do was get on a train to London and go to Malvern! I haven't quite let on how much I miss him, but its enough to make my heart jump everytime I hug the Stitch that he gave me!!
I'm still ill. I've been given ear drops by the doctor! Hopefully I'll be well by the time Christmas comes around. Umm... not long now!

Less than a week...

There is a song that commercial radio does called 'sleeps til Santa', now I can't tell you how many sleeps there are (because I'm normally out of the house before they sing) til Santa comes but its not very many!! Yes I am slowly getting excited about Christmas. I think it'll be better once I'm the other side of London and with my family.
Fusion Christmas party tomorrow. It has been over 6 weeks in the making, but we finally finished preparing today. It has been a lot of hard work with more than enough people sticking their ores in but tomorrow we (Helen and I) will get to show over 20 young people (hopefully closer to 40) how good we are as leaders!
I have news from Amy (who is going to West Africa and not South, my fault, d'uh!!). Her parents organized a breakfast for her and she's managed to get all the money to pay for her training whilst she's on the ship. Now we have the easy task of raising the money to bring her home!! If anyone feels so inclined to give money to Mercyships in general - here's ! your link

I am happy but ill and have got to the stage in my life where paracetomol doesn't work. I know this is a stupid question, but I'm going to ask it any way - is there such thing as a safe overdose?

I miss Henry loads and it royally sucks that I won't get to see him until the 12th Jan. But my sister is in the habit of sending me pictures of him. I know that I want a cowboy for Christmas!! One of my housemates, I won't name names, has decided that we are going to get married too. She was telling me as we were walking to a lecture (kinda narrows it down of you know my housemates!). She knows me well enough to decide that just because we have the same beliefs that we are going to get married - well, I dunno, but its early days yet (p.s. We've talked about marriage and kids already!)

Right I have to sleep so I can get up and have bacon for breakfast tomorrow!!

Full of God's love

We went the wrong way into town and I prayed for a parking space, God gave us one right outside where we needed to stop.
I had a productive day at work.
I got a pink Christmas Tree.
I've had such a God filled day it's been great. Even better - I get to share the story of 'Baby' Jesus tomorrow in the coolest way ever - through a chocolate advent calendar (show me the people who say God isn't relevent to today's society, I'll tell 'em they're wrong!). I love my life at the moment, its a shame my boyfriend is texting me rather than sitting sharing with me!

My Weekend!

There has been a post that says I didn't give out enough info about my weekend with Henry. How much do you wanna know? I'm not going to kiss and tell, that would make you all sick. I've not got the time to give you a full account.
We went to a Musical (Am. Dram.) on Saturday (our first proper date!) and didn't go to bed till 2 in the morning. I got up at 10am and we spent 3 hours doing nothing! We did some shopping and then watched Zoolander (I'm yet to be converted). I cooked and then went to Fusion. I came home to find Henry talking to Aimie. Aimie told me that her uncle was in a bad state and probably won't see Christmas. I'm praying for her and her mum's brother, as well as their family and I'd love it if you joined me - thankyou.
We said goodnight and I slept on the couch. I got up at 7.30am to do my mentoring top-up training. I got home and we went out for lunch. We played pool for a bit (we both won one game) and I watched his bus leave.
He's been gone for 23 hours and I'm already hating life without him.
Enough? I think so.

Disney is so much fun!

Henry's gone home :( I won't get to see him til January now! Its well annoying, but I should expect it, seen as I'm so busy and he's a late addition to my schedule! But I've had an awesome weekend and I will miss him loads!! He brought me the coolest Christmas present, I was so shocked cos he said that he was worried about not having enough room for hair gel!! Cheeky boy! I got a Stitch dressed as Santa!! Now I have to buy him something!
Tee Hee, I'm so happy!

Its the weekend!!

Hazzar, 2050 words!! A little over (to be honest I tought I'd be under) but hey, I'm happy! I think I'm getting RSI in my wrists from doing too much typing, which is never good. I'll probably come out of Uni with really bad wrists and end up with arthritis in my arms and hands, but I guess thats what you get for being so clever!
Henry is going to be here in just over 3 hours but bless him, he has a cold, so I'll probably be ill on tuesday morning! I'm so excited!
I have to do my christmas shopping!!

zzzzzzzz....

I'm currently resting... I'm very close (452 words) to finishing my essay so I'm talking a rest, I'm told every 45 mins you workyou're meant to have 15 mins off, or is that for revision? Anyway I figured it was time I stopped writing about 19th Century Sociologists for a little while so for the next ten minutes, I'm going to dose.
I'm so excited about tomoro. I get to see Henry! Less than 24 hours. I have to tidy my room and do some food shopping. God bless the fact that I've got a 24 hr tesco practically next door!!

And then there were 990

Yes I'm taking a break from essay writing, again! I'm half way into it - I figure if I can finish doing my section on Marx this evening I can do Weber and my conclusion (which in total will be less than 800 words!) on friday! I can't believe how unmotivated I am to do this, I would be so much more excited to be writing about the effect of modernity on religion, but I don't write the module guide. Still if I get 200 words done by 11 tonight I'll be happy!

Exam timetables!

Ah ha! The joy of a well organised uni... well at at least when it comes to important things like exams (sod taking money from me so i can actually get an education so i can pass the exams!). Any way, I've got three exams at the end of this semester (which finishes on the last weekend of January) and they are within 6 days of each other. Which is good because I finish the first semester of my second year on the 24th January! Yeay for a whole week of doing nothing!
Right, I have to write this essay otherwise I will not pass at all!

If I...?

If I eat a chocolate and follow it with a mouthful of water am I being good or bad?
If I haven't done any of my essay but I have done my God and Evil reading, am I being good or bad? (I didn't do my reading last week but did do my essay, needless to say the lecture was really poor because no-one had done the reading)
I think I'm averaging out at the moment - I'm just about to start my essay and I have been doing a lot of reading for it because it covers a broad subject (as wide as the Atlantic ocean from a sociologists perspective). I'll do essay writing for an hour or so, then eat, do some more and then get ready for D's birthday celebrations!
And the point of this partiular blog entry, I hear you cry...I remembered where the song lyric comes from! Savage Garden - such a good band, shame Darren Hayes got a record deal all on his own!! I leave you with that thought, while I think about 19th Century Sociologists and the historical concept of Modernity.

What a weekend!

God is awesome. He totally looked after me the entire weekend. Not once was I over-stressed nor did I worry about feeding 26 people.
For those of you who don't know I volunteered myself to feed the members of the CU for the house party. I managed it all on my own and now I'm quite happy to say that by the age of 20 I have catered, for a whole weekend (that's 6 meals + afternoon tea) for 26 people and I still had food left over. I think its quite an achievement at such a young age. I'm looking forward to doing a similar thing again, as long as I know I've got a God who loves me looking over my shoulder.

In the two teaching sessions that I did sit in on I picked up on something that I guess I'd never spotted before. In Matt 3:17 it says "And a voice from heaven said, "This is my Son, whom I love; with him I am well pleased." " I was listening to what David (the speaker) had to say and it hit me. God was "well pleased" (love that phrase) with Jesus, even though he hadn't started his ministry. God has loved me from the moment I let him into my life, before I'd even done anything, even before I knew the Matt 28:20 is the greatest commandment. Its quite an emotional thing, to know that someone has loved you even before you've met them (I'm sure thats a song lyric), it fills me with joy to know that.

I've had such a great weekend, it seems a shame to know that I have to get this essay done completely before Henry comes to visit! Its all work, well for the next four or five hours, then we all start getting ready for Di's birthday bash (we're dressing up as gangstas) and then all of tomoro (until committee meeting at 4). This week has started on a high (I got a lovely letter from Henry this morning - hes going to see Blink tonight) and will end on a high (when Henry hugs me on saturday).

It may only be monday but all I can say is "BRING ON THE WEEKEND!"

God is good part deux

This evening I was in dire need of a pick-me-up and I found it in a talk and a piano. Let me explain....
The semesters topic for CU is the story of David (found in 1 and 2 Samuel for those of you who struggle to remember your bible stories). This week it was David and Bethsheba. Basically David sees Bathsheba, gets her pregnant and kills off her husband. Lovely. The Bible is the best place to find stories of adultery and murder! The speaker was really challenging us to pick out where we fall down in the sight of God and to change our ways. I feel like I've let a lot of stuff go tonight.
Ok the piano. For the last week or so I've known that Dan (the music man) was leading worship on his own the whole weekend for the CU houseparty, Isobel was able to sing but what she really wanted to do was play. We had phoned a lot of churches and had no luck at all. This evening (the night before the weekend) Matt the president rang someone at his church to enquire about the spare keyboard they keep. Its not being used for the weekend so the CU will have a piano and a guitar for worship this weekend! I am over the moon, I love to listen to Dan and Isobel play, they are awesome together!!
Still its worthwhile praying that I don't have to feed a vegan this weekend, I've got two people who don't eat beef so I might switch from Beef to lamb for the bolognese. For everyone elses safety too?? ;)
Henry and I are fighting about which is better - neighbours or Family affairs? I'll be greatful for you input (though if you say family affairs I will disown you!), there is nothing better than an aussie soap on the BBC!

Life is a rollercoaster, you just gotta ride it!

Thankyou Ronan, for those immortal words!
That how life feels. I've just found out that my University are stupid! They can't understand that if I give them my bank details and make sure the money is in the bank they can take the money from my account on the relevant dates. Ooooh noooo, I have to set up a direct debit account to do this. How can I when I don't know how and wasn't given ANY indication that I needed to? Crazy world, so now instead of having a nice break between paying my funking tutition fees I now have 3 weeks between the two dates. ARGH! And because the University payroll system is crap too I won't get paid a lot in January either.
I was on such a high after talking to ten four year olds about David and Goliath (and chocolate advent calendar's!!) plus walking down the road named after the place where my boyfriend comes from! Now I don't know where to get my smile from at all. At least I get to off load an essay today and enjoy the final CU before the nightmare that is houseparty!!

Giving up slowly...

Today has been an indifferent day. I have done many things that I didn't want to and haven't done enough of what I wanted to do. Take Christmas shopping for instance, I've not even written my lists, let alone know when I am going to do it all. I know what I am going to buy my Secret Santa person, but the rest of the list slips into oblivion, so much so that everytime I go to think about it I find myself thinking about essays instead! Christmas is too much to tackle at the moment, we talked on sunday about giving up things for Advent, just as we give up things for Lent. My question is can I give up commercial christmas for one year? This year?

"Today is the town of David a Saviour has been born to you; he is Christ the Lord" Lk 2:11

Please, there is no reason why we need to spend so much money every year. Yes it is cool to get presents, but lets not be too greedy, eh? If you do feel inclined to buy presents, buy those that are Fairly Traded - http://www.fairtrade.org.uk Help loads of people have a good Christmas!

Sorry for the guilt trip, it how I feel and to answer my own question, my favourite thing at the moment is m Divine (Fair Trade) Chocolate Advent Calendar!!

Let me introduce you...

To a band who have helped me realise a lot. Sabio. Unfortunately they broke up a year or so ago but their album Escape has some awesome lyrics that are Biblically based.

"And if you feed the birds of the sky,
Then how much more will you take care of me?" (From Control, found in Matt 6:26)

"I will be more more popular
With you than my friends
'Cause you've always carried me,
And you will do till the end..." (From Carry me)

My Grandad is getting treatment in the Royal Marsden, they can't remove his lung (thats where his cancer is) cos it will be too stressful for him, but my Nan is happy to travel and hour and a half so he can get treatment every two or three weeks.

I'm exhausted so I'm going to bed.

I wasn't going to blog today but then again....

Don't ever do something that you know will be addictive, its not good for you!
Take blogging and texting, both aren't essential to live yet both have taken over my life in the last few weeks! I've sent over 400 texts in the last two weeks all mainly in Henry's direction and now my phone is going to start costing me money again so I think its high time I looked into transfering on to a contract phone, either now or in the very near future!! Anyone got any idea where I can get 500 texts for free each month - though I don't think 500 will cover a whole month?? #Here we go round the mulberry bush (or the web, depending)# to look for a suitable contract! (PS I want a camera phone!)

One major problem....

...is eating when you know that someone else likes you as much as you like them.
Yes I am struggling with the eating thing cos the happiness I'm feeling is stopping me from doing normal things! Ah heck!! I'm enjoying the whole thing though. I found myself smiling this morning just because!! I know its ultimately the most sickening thing in the world for those who are single and you don't want to hear my gushy-ness, so I'm going to stop.
Today has been productive, I've managed to make a start on my final essay, fair enough, its just making notes but I'm closer to writing it than I was this morning! I've also brought an ultra cool pen because I do need to reward myself and its cheaper than a CD rewards! Its bright pink! I got Di's (my housemates) birthday present as well. Very productive! I've just got to make sure I write my essay now!!

God given

That's what love is. And the world would not exist with out it.
I'm happy at the moment, Henry phoned me this evening and we chatted for almost an hour!
I have so much work to do and such a small amount of time to do it in!
CU houseparty next weekend and for those of you who now what a houseparty is you'll also know how to pray! Please please please, I'm feeding upwards of 20 people and I know its going to be a struggle especially when I've also gotta be looking for potential committee and doing a prayer room. My best friend won't be there and she's the rock I lean on when I need a rest normally!

Always someone elses problem....

...thats my life. Everyone takes an interest and tries to sort it out for me. You know who you are and I'm going to let you decide what you're doing and how to stop it.
I've felt sick to the stomach since last night because the certain boy had said he'd written a letter to me. This morning when I ran down the stairs to see if there was any post I spotted my name instantly, I only guessed the hand writing would be Henry's. I smiled and my housemate was questioning me "Who's that from?", I replied with the biggest smile and the smallest voice I've got "Henry" I said. And then I disappeared. I thought it was best that I sat down to read it and I was shaking so much I had to steady myself. I'm still shaking at the thought of it. It was really cool to hear from him.
I have work to do, if you wanna know more detail, post a comment!

It'll come back to me eventually....

I knew exactly what I was going to write 2 seconds ago and now I've hit a blank, I really have! I think its because my brain is actually plugged into doing my Psalms essay and I can think of anything else. I'm definitely having one of 'those' weeks, which is ultimately shocking for me, cos I've not been this bad for ages. I think it's because I haven't taken any paracetomol (or prescription drugs) for seven days. That makes me sound like a druggie, but you have to remember that out of nine weeks this term I have been ill for approximately 5. I don't want to do my work, because although I am behind my schedule, I'm ahead of everyone else's! Weird and ultimately crap at the same time. I want to do work I really want to but I'm happier staring at my laptop wondering how a certain boy feels about me!!

Bragging rights are mine!!

I won at pool 3-0!! I'm well happy still. I'm sitting in the Uni computer room waiting for Chapel to roll around. Its all fun! I'm riding on no sleep (or at least what feels like no sleep), I think I may have a cold again and I miss a certain boy!
Goodbye!

Patience is a virtue

I was trying to get into my blog yesterday and there were some serious internet problems. So frustrating, but I'm too happy to let it get to me. I've got loads of other things to do, so much that I spent yesterday evening watching Van Helsing! Its a good movie, but we talked all over it, making stupid comments like you do when you've had just enough to drink to be really witty!!
I'm definately still riding on the high from the weekend, although all hell broke loose on Tuesday morning. I was still smiling this morning when I woke up - which doesn't happen that often! We're on thursday and I'm still geting pangs of excitement! I do miss Lu'on and one certain person!

Come the f*** on, Bridget!

Yes I have just returned from what has to be the most predictable movie I've ever seen. Am in very happy mood though and feeling rather like I need a handsome young man and a happy ever after. For those of you who haven't seen it, I won't ruin it. And for those of you who have, I'm sure you understand what I mean when I say Wonder bra!!
I'm in a happy mood cos one certain boy has reciprocated my feelings for him. Its taken quite a long time for it to happen (as it always does with me for some reason) and some people don't exactly agree with it and a lot of people are asking questions!!

Bridget has to get her beauty sleep, she has a prayer breakfast at 6.30 tomoro.

6 hours later...

...and I'm home.
I've been at my sisters in Lu'on (Luton) all weekend. Its been great fun. Just the right amount of everything ;) We've been clubbing (and got suitably tipsy!) and spent Saturday doing nothing. Henry and Miriam (two very wonderful people) cooked dinner for us and we watched eternal sunshine of the spotless mind. I went to bed at 1am and woke up at 7.45am so I could eat bacon sandwiches before going to church. I got on a train shortly after 1pm and got home at 7.30pm. Hectic day, but I've got some great memories from the whole weekend. I'm really happy at the moment and if you want to now why, you'll have to ask!!

Happiness is the greatest gift I possess

Its great not having anything to do. I've finished all the work I was going to do today and I've still got an hour until I plan to go to bed. Tomorrow I can get up and go to the doctors (the antibiotics haven't worked) and then wander into town to get a prescription if need be, do some shopping, hand in my essay and travel to Luton. Yes tomorrow is going to be stress free until I start travelling! I hate the trains, but there we go, I can't do anything about something that is (about) a billion times heavier than I am and gets stuck when there are 'the wrong sort of leaves on the track'.
I'm happy doing nothing!!

University

For those of you who have forgotton, my minor is in Sociology, which I enjoy as much as Theology and spend my time accordingly on. Some who are taking SO221 as a 'random' module don't feel the same way. I have just come from a seminar group where the lecturer did all the talking because only 3 people turned up. We had all spent the time, during very busy social lives and whilst writing essays, to read a piece that washed over us intirely so that we struggled to answer the question 'what is this piece saying?' . The poor lecturer was trying to get blood out of a stone, and normally I'm very good at blagging the answers! However, I have emailed the course chairperson (gotta be PC) and expect a humble apology for the classmates who didn't show up at all (and haven't done for the last three weeks).
My question to you is - What is so daunting about a discussion that you don't even turn up to the lecture before it? Its a discussion, you can say something and should expect to at least get one question wrong - I know I did today, and surprise surprise, I'm still ALIVE!!
Right I'm signing off, I've got another lecture (yes I've been to all these seminar groups as well!) and then on to the timed essay!

Mornings do exist, I've seen them...

I'm having a crazy week. I have 6 out of 7 early morings this week. Starting sunday, I've been up before 9am every day! Hopefully I'll have a lie-in on saturday when I go to visit my sister and then it starts all over again. I'm having a night off, which is becoming a regular wednesday thing.
I've got a timed essay tomorrow and the drugs I'm taking aren't working. I'm going to cry if I still can't hear anything by the start of next week. I have accomodated so much that I'm talking quieter than normal, people can't understand me cos they can't hear me!
I'm watching the end of The Mummy Returns and finding it well difficult to concentrate cos I'm worried about everything! Anyway, life goes on and so do I!

The quickest Blog entry in the world

Evening! I've been up since 5am, in london since 11am and in make-up since 1pm. Its now 12am. I've had a long day but I've enjoyed myself greatly and got to see the Christmas lights (shock horror) in London. Christmas is upon us people and if you don't know what its all about take a hint from my MSN name READ THE BIBLE!

God is good

Don't say 'God never answers prayers', its simple not true. God can teach us to appreciate his timing thats for sure!! Take my friend Amy. She had the green light to go to South Africa. God had told her thats where he wanted her to spend the year out she had planned, God gave her everything and then he taught her a lesson. She was put on the waiting list, she was fourth and today after a month of waiting shes finally going. She said to her youth leader last night 'I'm not going to look (at other projects) this week', she hasn't and God is taking her to South Africa. God answers prayers.

One other thing, I'm getting driving lessons in Cheltenham now. As of next monday hopefully. Its taken me 8 weeks to get this far, to pluck up the courage to phone and now I'm waiting for a lady called Karen (funnily enough thats my sisters name and she passed her driving test first time!) to phone and set a time. Hazzar!! I've gotta find the money now! C'mon God!

History repeats itself

There are times I wish that the girls I live with would be women and tell me to my face that I don't do enough house work. Well actually I wish they'd discover the truth before they bad mouth me behind my back. I came down this afternoon after sleeping for a couple of hours, cos its the only time I can rest and was told that I 'should really do the washing up cos the girls have been saying stuff'. Now believe me when I say, my guests did all their (ad all our) washing up from the night before, I woke up early to clean the bathroom this morning too. Get your facts straight before you go telling me what I have and have not done around the house!

On to happier things. I saw Jez at lunch time (the Christian bloke I fancy). I walked into the pub and there he was, sitting with the couple I set up and another friend. All I could do was say 'hi' in a really stoopid voice. we talked about football really breifly, cos thats were he was going (to watch Cheltenham Town). I enjoyed seeing him but will forever be ribbed by the guys who met him cos they only know that I fancy him!

One down, two to go!!

Ah the joy of knowing you've finished something before a deadline. Now I can do my reading for my lecture on thursday! Ha ha and prepare for my timed assessment on friday, find the time to pack for going to luton on friday. Does it ever stop? I've got an hour until I need to start preparing for dinner (by actually buying the stuff!!) so I'm going to spend some time chilling and cleaning, oo and eating, eatng is good!!

2,019 words, 16 footnotes and 10 books in my Bibliography, I think I'm getting the hang of this academic thing! I'll let you know what my mark is in four weeks! I'm looking towards getting my Psalms essay off the ground next wednesday after work. That'll take me a week and then I can get started on my Sociology essay. Joy!

To up date things, I still haven't found a driving school and my ear infection is playing up so much that I'm surprised I can hear anything!

Constant ringing!

I love doctors! I now have some pretty little pills (they are red and sunset yellow (so he ingredients say)) to get rid of an ear infection. The doctor I saw actutally said 'Oh my gosh' when he looked into my ear! I've go to stick with the decongestant stuff for my cold, which at the moment tastes minging!

Today had been a good day. I have almost finished my first essay and I'm definately looking forward to writing my Bibliography tomorow before everyone comes round for dinner. I've got 12 footnotes (when 10 is minimum and 15 is average) and I'm 600 words off my target. I'll get it done, I only have to tidy up (bulk out) and write my conclusion and then everyone comes round for dinner!! 4pm tomorrow is my deadline, I'm getting up at 9am!

Toot a la fruit

Yes I'm in a random mood. I've been working in one way or another since 7pm and its almost 1am now. I've got my 1000 word count though its a day late, I should be on my final 500 now, but no. God has other plans. Aimie raided my room, which got me slacking. She took my laptop to show her blokey the rugby tour pictures she got on CD.

I've had a weird day. I saw my ex boyfriend in the middle of my lectures this afternoon. I could not get over how fit he looked for about an hour. Thankfully the girl I was sitting with was oblivious to the fact that I trailed off the middle of a sentence. He didn't spot me but...umm...I had a good time! (actually I don't know what I would've said to him if he'd've come over!)

Talking of boys,Dan phoned me a couple of nights ago to offer his moral support, which was cool. We can be friends and I won't let anyone tell me any different, even if it is Dan telling me.

I get to see a doctor tomorrow for my flu. One of my housemates had a go at me for going to the doctor for a cold. I've got flu, women! She hasn't seen me enough to understand how unwell I am. My dad scared me by telling me that it could turn into a glandular fever thing. ARGH, that's the last thing I want.

Wish me luck!

Post Script (P.S.) The title of tonight's blog was brought to you by Dan's MSN name - call it plagiarism if you want!!

The Ultimate!

Ha ha, I am a classic head case. a student who is on the verge of finishing an essay two weeks early yet has been procrastinating for the last two hours! I don't know whether I am coming or going, I have been up since 5.40am (13hrs and still going strong). I have not done all the things I hoped to achieve for today and yesterday, so now I am 2 pieces of reading and 400 words behind my target for this evening. I have to get up at 8am tomorrow. I've got at least 4 hours of work to do so I must get going!! The clock is racing toward midight and I need to be runing along side it!!

Don't you just love pop-up blockers

I mis-spelt my blog address (because I could not be bothered to find it in favorites) and got about 100 different pop-ups, because my blocker had been turned off! Must remember to NEVER turn off the pop-up blocker off, ever!

I managed to get my word count and then some, so I am rewarding myself by going to a Committee Meeting (HA!) and eating stupid amounts of chocolate, before settling down to write another 400 words (with doing my washing and eating interspersed) before bed time. I'll be half way there by 10pm, you watch me! I have to go to be ridiculously early tonight because I'm up at 5.30am tomorrow for a prayer breakfast with Fusion! I love the fact that I am CRB checked!

I'm procrastinating and I don't care!

There are certain ways I reward myself whilst I'm doing my essays, today's is re-reading what Dan said to me last night on MSN and the promise of a sandwich if I get up to 500 words by the time I have to get ready to go to the committee meeting. It should be easy, I'm enjoying this one immensely! I was despairing this time last week about it, but I had some help from a very special friend. Now I know where I'm going and what I'm doing. Finding the right words for this is difficult, its the first essay I've written for a good 5 months!! Right I'd better get back to it!!

Essays away!

"I thank my God everytime I remember you." Philippians 1 v 3

I'm in the mood to do a little bit of thanking, a lot of thanking. Take a moment and thank God for all the things He has done, in His love, which is never ending. We spend too much time moaning to God in our finite wisdom of 'we know best' - why haven't you given me this? Where is that, which I asked for a couple of weeks ago? Sorry guys, God knows best, and I try to thank Him eveytime I think of His timing. Yes I am human, but I'm a blessed human. I have my faults and weaknesses, I fall down, but I know I will be carried 'even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death' (Ps 23v4).
Everytime I am reminded of God I try to laugh, I want to become a person who says Thankyou, not please.

Ok so the real point? I'm thanking God for Dan. For the weirdness of chatting via a web cam, for the fact that my jaw hurts so much because I can't help but smile while I'm texting him and for the fact that no matter what is going on I know I can count on him to listen to me and that he can count on me. (For those of you who don't know we have kissed and he has a girlfriend, its taken me 6 weeks to realize that I can be friends with him). We've moved on, I wish I could've told him face to face, but that's impossible. I'm happy now, I can move on.

I'm going to thank God some more!

P.S. the essays are off the ground and I've told my field chair that my grandad has got cancer. He said I can get an extension if need be.

Relationships

I'm sitting listening to Graham Torrington and though not biblical in the slightest, he has made me realise that guy/girl relationships are severly over-rated. Yes marriage is wonderful and its what we were put on the earth for, but until that day, when I walk toward the Christian bloke who fulfills the second most important trinity (that of Jesus, him and I) in my life, I don't want anything to do with non-christians. Surely we should be more focused on a relationship that means something and the rest will follow? I know its hard but surely looking for God is more productive than looking for a fit bloke (the next catch?).

My Challenge to all who read, and myself, is to look for God. If you don't look for anything else today look for God. If its in a lecture, at work, at church, in a broken relationship, He's gonna be in there some where, and if you can't find Him, you're not looking hard enough!! No matter how bad a situation is (God bless the victims of the Reading tain crash) He's there.

GO OUT AND FIND HIM!!

Why won't it just go away?

There are certain things I love: boys who know what they are talking about, people who are happy to admit they are wrong and then drop it, happy teenagers, listerners and people who can laugh at themselves.
Then there are the things I hate: Infections, people who love talking about themselves, hyperactive teenagers, moaners and 'slow' people.
Now I know the last one on the hate list is not particularly nice but I'm fed up of bumping into people who don't have a clue what they are doing. How can society miss such a person? Can someone tell me if common sense is genetic or not?
Any way I have an infection and I'm currently doing the paracetomol/cold and flu relief thing until it either goes away or gets so bad I have to be signed off for a week (which I do not want!). Its definately ear/throat/nose relatedand I'm sure that I'm almost over it! This is the best I've felt in days! And I won't take someone elses perscribed drugs as all of my housemates suggested - its wrong, they weren't prescribed for me, how can you not get that?

Good night!

Washinp up!

I'm all for sharing the house work, but when I'm not actually at the house for 15 hours straight and have to be up at 8am the next day, I can't physically do it, can I?

That was my thought as I read a message from one of my housemates at 8.30am this morning. I live with 5 other girls and I think I easily do the most outside of Uni, which means I'm out most days of the week (currently Saturdays are my only free day and even then I do things in the evening). I went home for the weekend, therefore not creating any dirty dishes, I didn't eat when I came in on Sunday evening at 11pm. On Monday I had a 9.15am lecture which I left early for and then worked all day and did the washing up in the evening, while Aimie had a guest (he was fit and I was standing at the sink!). Tuesday I got up late, had toast for lunch and worked from 2pm in Uni, had a Committee meeting at 4pm, went to a meeting at 6pm and went for a drink at 8pm. I came in and feel asleep. Yesterday I was up at 5am, but refused to get out of bed until it was absolutely necessary (which was still 6.35am), I was out of the house at 7.35am and didn't get back til 10.30pm. I had to be up at 8am today! Now read that again and tell me

1. When can I do the washing up?
2. When have I created piles of washing up that deserve a note on the fridge?
3. Who is the busiest?

I don't need to tell you that the note-writing housemate does not have a job, does not get herself invovled in sports and societies and goes to the gym for an hour a day. Busy? She should try my life, then she might loose her unwanted weight!

And the only reason she's left a note? Because the people she's targeting aren't at home enough for her to have a proper go at them (and believe me I'm being targeted).

Ha! Rant over - I'm off to eat, well force feed myself, I'm ill from doing so much!!

Work, what work?

Yes I know, look at the time. I've not got the energy to get off my arse and go to bed, it sucks. I'm so tired and I just want to spend tomoro doing nothing, so I think I'm going to spend half of tomorrow doing nothing. I have to do some reading for my lecture on Friday (time management is an awesome thing) and I have to do some reading for my other essays.
Aimie's dislocated her hip - or at least thats what I'm guessing - with my 20 years of (not) medical knowledge behind me. Surely common sense would say 'if your hip hurts then you've done something bad to it?' I dunno, I'm not a qualified doctor, but once my medical certificate from the Universiiy of Las Vagas comes through the post......
Sorry I'm very tired and I've been listening to Jazz music all evening - don't ask! I dunno how many people read this, but I'm feeling that it's only for my own good a the moment - if anyone feels the need to tell me they get something from this please tell me!
P.S. I'm updating my website so the next week or so is your last chance to see a picture of me that is over 4 years old - http://www.fisher-folk.co.uk click o Liz

Itchy nose!!

Something is eating me. I don't mean mentally I mean literally, I've got bite marks all over my arms and legs and new ones appear every morning. I have a suspicion it's got some thing to do with my bed sheets so i'm having a wash day! Everything is in the washing machine (tiny though it is) and I'm going to do some work, see if I can get all three of my essays off the ground by lunch time. I know I'm ambitious in this but I've been procrastionating for 5 weeks and I feel its time to get my head down. We're half way through term so I'm starting to worry a little.

I'm going to have a productie day!!

Reality Check

I don't want to live on my own, ever.

That is a statement that I will hold to, I've had what most people would class as a rollercoaster weekend and all I need is a face I know to smile and ask me how my weekend was. What do I find? An empty house which will no doubt be a house full of cold, semi-drunk girls when the pubs kick out. I'm not going to asume this, I know it.

I found out that my Grandad has cancer, we're not sure which type, or where it is in his body, but he has cancer. Its affecting his voice so it could be lungs or throat. I don't know, all I know I that no-one is here to comfort me and tell me that, even though they don't know my grandad, it will be alright. And I don't have that. It makes me feel so low that I can't put it into words.

I've been out since 2pm, its just turned 11.30pm and I have a 9.15am lecture that I have to be at. Maybe I'm emotionally drained, maybe I'm too tired, I know I never want to live on my own.

Disney is not how life works

I went to see Princess Diaries 2 this evening and all it did was remind me how much my life stinks at the moment love wise. I also got a text telling me my ex-boyfriend was in town, not good after such a wonderful day where all my lectures made sense and I discovered that 'no-one expects to be under house arrest' (read Romans and then Phillipians!). Let me explain, a friend of mine has had all her doors for all her gap year projects closed by the Big Man Upstairs (better known as God) and another friend's car broke down this evening so she can't go home for the weekend and because she has dodgy knees she can't walk anywhere. Under house arrest?? Definately!!
Anyway, this all reminded me that God has Disney style plans for us but we get to work on both sides of the camera, it can be rosey some of the time but we have to stick with him through every crap thing too, otherwise we don't get our moment to walk down the stairs for our coronation (in heaven).
Oo I can be quite profound some times! (Sorry its early!!)

Tired, very tired

I've spent the day in Birmingham NEC, walking around looking for resources for all my youth work. I never find anything worth while and today was no different. I was preoccupied with thoughts of Dan and how I really should get on with all the work that is sitting on my desk beside me. I've got essays to sart and all I've done is written the titles!
I'm very tired now and all I want to do is sit in front of the TV!! Off I go!

Stupid o'clock

Check the time, I'm meant to be up in less than 6 hours! I'm going to birmingham tomorrow but at the moment I'm having an MSN chat with all of my housemates and some random bloke (well Lisa's Ex Boyfriend). I was speakig to Dan earlier. The moment I logged on he said Hey! and it went from there. We chatted for about an hour and then it got serious again, he can never just leave it. He finished on "I miss the way u make me feel, the way u look at me and make me feel like I'm somebody." Which, to be fair, is nice but I wasn't quick enough to reply so I couldn't say anything back and I don't know whether to email him to tell him how bad that was of him. I might do it! I'm off to bed!

Day 2

A small update on my house situation, everyone is talking to each other - it doesn't mean they like each other, but its an improvement on Sunday night! Everything is back to normal! Hazzar!
The whole Dan thing kept me up last night, I'm not one for staying awake too late on a monday night but this was unusual, I woke up feeling the same, like it had only just happened! All smiles for me today, well I have CU committee this afternoon and then dinner with a few friends, when all I want to do is 'see' Dan. Focus!

Three in one day! Oops

Ok I'm a little weirded out at the moment. Dan, who is the nicest guy I know, and I have been chatting on MSN. I've known him for about three years and fancied him for a little short of that. Recently somethng happened between us and thats all I'm going to say, if you want to know more you can post a question!! Anyway he has a web cam and I could see him live but couldn't hear him and could only write to him through MSN, if I had a web cam it would have freaked me out even more! I haven't seen him for a month and that was the weirdest way I could've seen him. Hence weirded out! I was giggling the whole time! I would've collapsed in laughter if I wasn't sitting down. You'll never know how gorgeous someone is until they stare at 'you' though a web cam!
I'm off to bed!

Things to do

Two posts in one day is a bad start. I've decided, on my walk to the train station to up date my young persons rail card (don't travel anywhere with out one!), that there are certian things I need to do by the end of this term.
Number 1 - Find a driving school
Number 2 - Improve my typing (i know its not that bad but you don't get to see how many mistakes I correct)
Number 3 - Get all my work in on time
Last but not least
Number 4 - Get my housemates to like each other (a long process that will last till summer!)

A new way to vent my anger!

Hi, everyone, welcome to my blog. What a weird word. Random almost, like the word my sister uses to describe her day sometimes, its Blergh, truely from the heart!
Anyway, this is a new way to write down what I'm thiking and get RSI from using a laptop keyboard whenever I'm typing. You'll get to read about everything from boys and football to shos and clubbing. I promise I won't get too angry, as my catchphrase at the moment seems to be 'positive thinking' but its hard when your favourite team lost yesterday to a team who can't play (Arsenal v Man U - Arsenal should've won) and my housemates are playing the silent game, which I'm stuck in the middle of!
A little about me, I'm originally from Essex, now living in Cheltenham (during term time) , doing a degree in Theology and Sociology. I'm going home this coming weekend so I can recouperate and see my friends. Hazzar! I've got a wonderful family and it's my twin sisters fault if I get hooked to this blog thing and don't do anything.
God Bless
Liz