Tuesday, November 30, 2004
"And if you feed the birds of the sky,
Then how much more will you take care of me?" (From Control, found in Matt 6:26)
"I will be more more popular
With you than my friends
'Cause you've always carried me,
And you will do till the end..." (From Carry me)
My Grandad is getting treatment in the Royal Marsden, they can't remove his lung (thats where his cancer is) cos it will be too stressful for him, but my Nan is happy to travel and hour and a half so he can get treatment every two or three weeks.
I'm exhausted so I'm going to bed.
Take blogging and texting, both aren't essential to live yet both have taken over my life in the last few weeks! I've sent over 400 texts in the last two weeks all mainly in Henry's direction and now my phone is going to start costing me money again so I think its high time I looked into transfering on to a contract phone, either now or in the very near future!! Anyone got any idea where I can get 500 texts for free each month - though I don't think 500 will cover a whole month?? #Here we go round the mulberry bush (or the web, depending)# to look for a suitable contract! (PS I want a camera phone!)
Monday, November 29, 2004
Yes I am struggling with the eating thing cos the happiness I'm feeling is stopping me from doing normal things! Ah heck!! I'm enjoying the whole thing though. I found myself smiling this morning just because!! I know its ultimately the most sickening thing in the world for those who are single and you don't want to hear my gushy-ness, so I'm going to stop.
Today has been productive, I've managed to make a start on my final essay, fair enough, its just making notes but I'm closer to writing it than I was this morning! I've also brought an ultra cool pen because I do need to reward myself and its cheaper than a CD rewards! Its bright pink! I got Di's (my housemates) birthday present as well. Very productive! I've just got to make sure I write my essay now!!
Sunday, November 28, 2004
I'm happy at the moment, Henry phoned me this evening and we chatted for almost an hour!
I have so much work to do and such a small amount of time to do it in!
CU houseparty next weekend and for those of you who now what a houseparty is you'll also know how to pray! Please please please, I'm feeding upwards of 20 people and I know its going to be a struggle especially when I've also gotta be looking for potential committee and doing a prayer room. My best friend won't be there and she's the rock I lean on when I need a rest normally!
Saturday, November 27, 2004
I've felt sick to the stomach since last night because the certain boy had said he'd written a letter to me. This morning when I ran down the stairs to see if there was any post I spotted my name instantly, I only guessed the hand writing would be Henry's. I smiled and my housemate was questioning me "Who's that from?", I replied with the biggest smile and the smallest voice I've got "Henry" I said. And then I disappeared. I thought it was best that I sat down to read it and I was shaking so much I had to steady myself. I'm still shaking at the thought of it. It was really cool to hear from him.
I have work to do, if you wanna know more detail, post a comment!
Friday, November 26, 2004
Thursday, November 25, 2004
I'm definately still riding on the high from the weekend, although all hell broke loose on Tuesday morning. I was still smiling this morning when I woke up - which doesn't happen that often! We're on thursday and I'm still geting pangs of excitement! I do miss Lu'on and one certain person!
Wednesday, November 24, 2004
I'm in a happy mood cos one certain boy has reciprocated my feelings for him. Its taken quite a long time for it to happen (as it always does with me for some reason) and some people don't exactly agree with it and a lot of people are asking questions!!
Bridget has to get her beauty sleep, she has a prayer breakfast at 6.30 tomoro.
Sunday, November 21, 2004
I've been at my sisters in Lu'on (Luton) all weekend. Its been great fun. Just the right amount of everything ;) We've been clubbing (and got suitably tipsy!) and spent Saturday doing nothing. Henry and Miriam (two very wonderful people) cooked dinner for us and we watched eternal sunshine of the spotless mind. I went to bed at 1am and woke up at 7.45am so I could eat bacon sandwiches before going to church. I got on a train shortly after 1pm and got home at 7.30pm. Hectic day, but I've got some great memories from the whole weekend. I'm really happy at the moment and if you want to now why, you'll have to ask!!
Thursday, November 18, 2004
I'm happy doing nothing!!
My question to you is - What is so daunting about a discussion that you don't even turn up to the lecture before it? Its a discussion, you can say something and should expect to at least get one question wrong - I know I did today, and surprise surprise, I'm still ALIVE!!
Right I'm signing off, I've got another lecture (yes I've been to all these seminar groups as well!) and then on to the timed essay!
Wednesday, November 17, 2004
I've got a timed essay tomorrow and the drugs I'm taking aren't working. I'm going to cry if I still can't hear anything by the start of next week. I have accomodated so much that I'm talking quieter than normal, people can't understand me cos they can't hear me!
I'm watching the end of The Mummy Returns and finding it well difficult to concentrate cos I'm worried about everything! Anyway, life goes on and so do I!
Tuesday, November 16, 2004
Monday, November 15, 2004
One other thing, I'm getting driving lessons in Cheltenham now. As of next monday hopefully. Its taken me 8 weeks to get this far, to pluck up the courage to phone and now I'm waiting for a lady called Karen (funnily enough thats my sisters name and she passed her driving test first time!) to phone and set a time. Hazzar!! I've gotta find the money now! C'mon God!
Sunday, November 14, 2004
On to happier things. I saw Jez at lunch time (the Christian bloke I fancy). I walked into the pub and there he was, sitting with the couple I set up and another friend. All I could do was say 'hi' in a really stoopid voice. we talked about football really breifly, cos thats were he was going (to watch Cheltenham Town). I enjoyed seeing him but will forever be ribbed by the guys who met him cos they only know that I fancy him!
Saturday, November 13, 2004
2,019 words, 16 footnotes and 10 books in my Bibliography, I think I'm getting the hang of this academic thing! I'll let you know what my mark is in four weeks! I'm looking towards getting my Psalms essay off the ground next wednesday after work. That'll take me a week and then I can get started on my Sociology essay. Joy!
To up date things, I still haven't found a driving school and my ear infection is playing up so much that I'm surprised I can hear anything!
Friday, November 12, 2004
Today had been a good day. I have almost finished my first essay and I'm definately looking forward to writing my Bibliography tomorow before everyone comes round for dinner. I've got 12 footnotes (when 10 is minimum and 15 is average) and I'm 600 words off my target. I'll get it done, I only have to tidy up (bulk out) and write my conclusion and then everyone comes round for dinner!! 4pm tomorrow is my deadline, I'm getting up at 9am!
I've had a weird day. I saw my ex boyfriend in the middle of my lectures this afternoon. I could not get over how fit he looked for about an hour. Thankfully the girl I was sitting with was oblivious to the fact that I trailed off the middle of a sentence. He didn't spot me but...umm...I had a good time! (actually I don't know what I would've said to him if he'd've come over!)
Talking of boys,Dan phoned me a couple of nights ago to offer his moral support, which was cool. We can be friends and I won't let anyone tell me any different, even if it is Dan telling me.
I get to see a doctor tomorrow for my flu. One of my housemates had a go at me for going to the doctor for a cold. I've got flu, women! She hasn't seen me enough to understand how unwell I am. My dad scared me by telling me that it could turn into a glandular fever thing. ARGH, that's the last thing I want.
Wish me luck!
Post Script (P.S.) The title of tonight's blog was brought to you by Dan's MSN name - call it plagiarism if you want!!
Wednesday, November 10, 2004
Tuesday, November 09, 2004
I managed to get my word count and then some, so I am rewarding myself by going to a Committee Meeting (HA!) and eating stupid amounts of chocolate, before settling down to write another 400 words (with doing my washing and eating interspersed) before bed time. I'll be half way there by 10pm, you watch me! I have to go to be ridiculously early tonight because I'm up at 5.30am tomorrow for a prayer breakfast with Fusion! I love the fact that I am CRB checked!
I'm in the mood to do a little bit of thanking, a lot of thanking. Take a moment and thank God for all the things He has done, in His love, which is never ending. We spend too much time moaning to God in our finite wisdom of 'we know best' - why haven't you given me this? Where is that, which I asked for a couple of weeks ago? Sorry guys, God knows best, and I try to thank Him eveytime I think of His timing. Yes I am human, but I'm a blessed human. I have my faults and weaknesses, I fall down, but I know I will be carried 'even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death' (Ps 23v4).
Everytime I am reminded of God I try to laugh, I want to become a person who says Thankyou, not please.
Ok so the real point? I'm thanking God for Dan. For the weirdness of chatting via a web cam, for the fact that my jaw hurts so much because I can't help but smile while I'm texting him and for the fact that no matter what is going on I know I can count on him to listen to me and that he can count on me. (For those of you who don't know we have kissed and he has a girlfriend, its taken me 6 weeks to realize that I can be friends with him). We've moved on, I wish I could've told him face to face, but that's impossible. I'm happy now, I can move on.
I'm going to thank God some more!
P.S. the essays are off the ground and I've told my field chair that my grandad has got cancer. He said I can get an extension if need be.
Sunday, November 07, 2004
My Challenge to all who read, and myself, is to look for God. If you don't look for anything else today look for God. If its in a lecture, at work, at church, in a broken relationship, He's gonna be in there some where, and if you can't find Him, you're not looking hard enough!! No matter how bad a situation is (God bless the victims of the Reading tain crash) He's there.
GO OUT AND FIND HIM!!
Then there are the things I hate: Infections, people who love talking about themselves, hyperactive teenagers, moaners and 'slow' people.
Now I know the last one on the hate list is not particularly nice but I'm fed up of bumping into people who don't have a clue what they are doing. How can society miss such a person? Can someone tell me if common sense is genetic or not?
Any way I have an infection and I'm currently doing the paracetomol/cold and flu relief thing until it either goes away or gets so bad I have to be signed off for a week (which I do not want!). Its definately ear/throat/nose relatedand I'm sure that I'm almost over it! This is the best I've felt in days! And I won't take someone elses perscribed drugs as all of my housemates suggested - its wrong, they weren't prescribed for me, how can you not get that?
Thursday, November 04, 2004
I'm all for sharing the house work, but when I'm not actually at the house for 15 hours straight and have to be up at 8am the next day, I can't physically do it, can I?
That was my thought as I read a message from one of my housemates at 8.30am this morning. I live with 5 other girls and I think I easily do the most outside of Uni, which means I'm out most days of the week (currently Saturdays are my only free day and even then I do things in the evening). I went home for the weekend, therefore not creating any dirty dishes, I didn't eat when I came in on Sunday evening at 11pm. On Monday I had a 9.15am lecture which I left early for and then worked all day and did the washing up in the evening, while Aimie had a guest (he was fit and I was standing at the sink!). Tuesday I got up late, had toast for lunch and worked from 2pm in Uni, had a Committee meeting at 4pm, went to a meeting at 6pm and went for a drink at 8pm. I came in and feel asleep. Yesterday I was up at 5am, but refused to get out of bed until it was absolutely necessary (which was still 6.35am), I was out of the house at 7.35am and didn't get back til 10.30pm. I had to be up at 8am today! Now read that again and tell me
- When can I do the washing up?
- When have I created piles of washing up that deserve a note on the fridge?
- Who is the busiest?
I don't need to tell you that the note-writing housemate does not have a job, does not get herself invovled in sports and societies and goes to the gym for an hour a day. Busy? She should try my life, then she might loose her unwanted weight!
And the only reason she's left a note? Because the people she's targeting aren't at home enough for her to have a proper go at them (and believe me I'm being targeted).
Ha! Rant over - I'm off to eat, well force feed myself, I'm ill from doing so much!!
Tuesday, November 02, 2004
Aimie's dislocated her hip - or at least thats what I'm guessing - with my 20 years of (not) medical knowledge behind me. Surely common sense would say 'if your hip hurts then you've done something bad to it?' I dunno, I'm not a qualified doctor, but once my medical certificate from the Universiiy of Las Vagas comes through the post......
Sorry I'm very tired and I've been listening to Jazz music all evening - don't ask! I dunno how many people read this, but I'm feeling that it's only for my own good a the moment - if anyone feels the need to tell me they get something from this please tell me!
P.S. I'm updating my website so the next week or so is your last chance to see a picture of me that is over 4 years old - http://www.fisher-folk.co.uk click o Liz
Monday, November 01, 2004
I'm going to have a productie day!!