There is only so much you can do for someone before they start to over-step the mark. Like posing as them so they can do a stupid amount of modules for their final semester. If you haven't read my blog before you won't have the foggiest idea who I'm on about, if you have and you still don't know, shame on you! I've gone out of my way, so if she starts complaining about work load I will have to slap her.
And no, it's not the universities fault, its the stubborness of the person taking the extra modules.
Though having said that, is it my own fault for letting the person over step the mark? Sometimes I'm just not impressed with my own niceness!
Thursday, February 16, 2006
Friday, February 10, 2006
Some forwards are too good to pass up!!
This is me all over!!! Very scary and incredibly funny!
How you know you experienced the 90's:
1) 10p Mr Frosty Ice Pops on long summer days!
2) Gordon the Gopher!
3) You could do or tried to do the Prodigy step. 'You're no good 4 me....'
4) You owned or longed for an Adidas three stripe tracksuit
5) You owned a compilation tape with TOP TUNES such as " Mr Vain", "What is love " and " Rhythm is a dancer " and 'How Bizarre, How Bizarre "
6) Girls thought Blue Mascara was cool!
7) Girls actually fancied Garry Barlow more than Robbie Williams
8) The Racoons! (nuff said)
9) You owned a pair of Nike Air Max, and wore them to death
10) Mr Motivator (What ever happened to him?)
11) Running on the spot dancing! (WAYHEY THE RUNNING MAN... )
12) You wore leggings/cycling shorts with long t-shirts
13) You owned a Bennetton, NafNaf, sweater shop jumper or waistcoat (or bag)
14) Girls owned scrunchies in an array of colours and tacky headbands with their names written on in thick glitter
15) You bought Smash Hits for the song lyrics and the immense amount of stickers that you would stick everywhere!
17) You had a pen pal
18) You could only watch the Simpson's on sky
19) On a Saturday evening you watched Catchphrase, Gladiators, Generation Game, Noels House Party and then Casualty
20) You taped the Pepsi Chartshow on radio one and tired in vain to pause the tape before the annoying guy talked and ruined the whole thing.
21) Cans of Coke were 25p
22) 10p Space Raiders Crisps
23) A grey Fruit of the Loom jumper was a must have
24) Sharkie & George were the crimebusters of the sea
25) Puffa jackets
26) You used the line " it's a free country " every day
27) The Sky Sports Blimp!
28) Impulse body spray for girls
29) Hooch Alcoholic Lemonade (where's it gone?!)
30) 'Don't forget your toothbrush', 'TFI' and Big Breakfast with Chris Evans
31) You had at least one troll
32) You know the dance to Macarena and Saturday Night. You also tried to scat like Scatman John! Bi bat ba ba da bo...
33) You watched Baywatch and longed for the day that Eddie & Sharni got together!
34) You watched Byker Grove 'ha ha ha whatcha laughin at!' (the Theme song ending), and saw PJ get shot in the eye with a paintball!
35) PJ and Duncan not Ant and Dec! Dodgy Pop Not Dodgy Presenting!
36) Shellsuits & bumbags!
37) You longed to live in Beverley Hills 90210
38) Home and Away was a prime time ITV programme watched by millions
39) You owned a Spice Girls album
40) Fruit salads and black jacks!
41) Strike it lucky on a sunday night with Michael Barrymore when he was straight & married
42) Chain letters
43) You had fake ID
44) You remember Todd Landers in Neighbours
45) You religiously watched Saved by the Bell on a Saturday morning!
46) You more than likely lost/nearly lost a wobbly tooth on a wham bar!!
47) CK one (probably the fake one from the market)
48) Going Live, then Live and Kicking was the place to be on a Saturday Morning - you know you remember the number 0181 811 8181
49) You knew every word to the theme tune from Fresh Prince of Bel Air
50) You collected Premier League Stickers and did swops at playtime
51) Girls wore crappy lipstick such as - coffee shimmer, heather shimmer and birthday suit!
52) You wore kickers and wallaby's with the tags hanging from them
53) You thought saying - " I know you are, but what am I " to every cuss that that came your way!
54) " love got the world in motion " with the John Barnes Rap
55) when you used to run away from some thing and shout ' leg iiiiiitt'
How you know you experienced the 90's:
1) 10p Mr Frosty Ice Pops on long summer days!
2) Gordon the Gopher!
3) You could do or tried to do the Prodigy step. 'You're no good 4 me....'
4) You owned or longed for an Adidas three stripe tracksuit
5) You owned a compilation tape with TOP TUNES such as " Mr Vain", "What is love " and " Rhythm is a dancer " and 'How Bizarre, How Bizarre "
6) Girls thought Blue Mascara was cool!
7) Girls actually fancied Garry Barlow more than Robbie Williams
8) The Racoons! (nuff said)
9) You owned a pair of Nike Air Max, and wore them to death
10) Mr Motivator (What ever happened to him?)
11) Running on the spot dancing! (WAYHEY THE RUNNING MAN... )
12) You wore leggings/cycling shorts with long t-shirts
13) You owned a Bennetton, NafNaf, sweater shop jumper or waistcoat (or bag)
14) Girls owned scrunchies in an array of colours and tacky headbands with their names written on in thick glitter
15) You bought Smash Hits for the song lyrics and the immense amount of stickers that you would stick everywhere!
17) You had a pen pal
18) You could only watch the Simpson's on sky
19) On a Saturday evening you watched Catchphrase, Gladiators, Generation Game, Noels House Party and then Casualty
20) You taped the Pepsi Chartshow on radio one and tired in vain to pause the tape before the annoying guy talked and ruined the whole thing.
21) Cans of Coke were 25p
22) 10p Space Raiders Crisps
23) A grey Fruit of the Loom jumper was a must have
24) Sharkie & George were the crimebusters of the sea
25) Puffa jackets
26) You used the line " it's a free country " every day
27) The Sky Sports Blimp!
28) Impulse body spray for girls
29) Hooch Alcoholic Lemonade (where's it gone?!)
30) 'Don't forget your toothbrush', 'TFI' and Big Breakfast with Chris Evans
31) You had at least one troll
32) You know the dance to Macarena and Saturday Night. You also tried to scat like Scatman John! Bi bat ba ba da bo...
33) You watched Baywatch and longed for the day that Eddie & Sharni got together!
34) You watched Byker Grove 'ha ha ha whatcha laughin at!' (the Theme song ending), and saw PJ get shot in the eye with a paintball!
35) PJ and Duncan not Ant and Dec! Dodgy Pop Not Dodgy Presenting!
36) Shellsuits & bumbags!
37) You longed to live in Beverley Hills 90210
38) Home and Away was a prime time ITV programme watched by millions
39) You owned a Spice Girls album
40) Fruit salads and black jacks!
41) Strike it lucky on a sunday night with Michael Barrymore when he was straight & married
42) Chain letters
43) You had fake ID
44) You remember Todd Landers in Neighbours
45) You religiously watched Saved by the Bell on a Saturday morning!
46) You more than likely lost/nearly lost a wobbly tooth on a wham bar!!
47) CK one (probably the fake one from the market)
48) Going Live, then Live and Kicking was the place to be on a Saturday Morning - you know you remember the number 0181 811 8181
49) You knew every word to the theme tune from Fresh Prince of Bel Air
50) You collected Premier League Stickers and did swops at playtime
51) Girls wore crappy lipstick such as - coffee shimmer, heather shimmer and birthday suit!
52) You wore kickers and wallaby's with the tags hanging from them
53) You thought saying - " I know you are, but what am I " to every cuss that that came your way!
54) " love got the world in motion " with the John Barnes Rap
55) when you used to run away from some thing and shout ' leg iiiiiitt'
Wednesday, February 08, 2006
I think I deserve a break!!
I've added over 1,200 words to my dissertation in the last day and a half, so I think I'm going to do some shopping. Of course I won't stop completely, I'm only on the 1930's. I've got at least 60 years to cover before friday!! The history of women in the Church of England and society is more complicated that I'd care to imagine! I'm still finding things I should mention!
What to buy?
What to buy?
Monday, February 06, 2006
I was wrong...
...but I still have my doubts.
Housemate has returned the 'stolen' items, claiming a mistake, having got up at 4am and never having seen the wash bag before. Lesson learnt? Don't assume, even at 4am in the morning. Still I haven't got an apology, nor did I get a text telling me housemate had found the wash bag. She jumped to her defence when I joked she had stolen my stuff, like she'd actually done something wrong, when she'd only made a mistake...
Had some sad news, but I'm not going to say anything here.
Housemate has returned the 'stolen' items, claiming a mistake, having got up at 4am and never having seen the wash bag before. Lesson learnt? Don't assume, even at 4am in the morning. Still I haven't got an apology, nor did I get a text telling me housemate had found the wash bag. She jumped to her defence when I joked she had stolen my stuff, like she'd actually done something wrong, when she'd only made a mistake...
Had some sad news, but I'm not going to say anything here.
Saturday, February 04, 2006
Ghosts and ghouls
Something is stealing my stuff and I don't know why. More chocolate spread has gone missing and so has my wash bag. There were three people in the house last night, two of which don't live here, so someone has moved stuff and not replaced it or stolen my things.
I don't feel safe in this house any more and that freaks me out. I'm meant to be able to trust everyone and not worry about it, because there are so many unwritten rules (please do not tell me they need to be written down) that everyone is aware of and having confronted each member of the house I know someone is lying, which leads me into an insecure place.
Who can I trust now? How do I find out who is lying and not get really angry about it? Do I just lock myself away til June and break all communications with my house?
I don't feel safe in this house any more and that freaks me out. I'm meant to be able to trust everyone and not worry about it, because there are so many unwritten rules (please do not tell me they need to be written down) that everyone is aware of and having confronted each member of the house I know someone is lying, which leads me into an insecure place.
Who can I trust now? How do I find out who is lying and not get really angry about it? Do I just lock myself away til June and break all communications with my house?
Friday, February 03, 2006
Torn in half
Have you ever felt so divided you wish you could be in two places at once? Or even more than that? How about wishing that your brain could work on its own, while you had fun?
Thats how I feel. I'm elated that I've spent so much time with Helen and that I got the chance to share with a youth group who listen to my profoundness! I'm also elated that Henry is going to be here very soon.
Two 'buts' - I have been given a date for an interview at Lincoln, its the 4th May, which is too close to my dissertation deadline for me to even give it a second thought. Do universities think that third years have nothing to do 4 weeks before exams start? Hello! Its frustrating, but there is nothing I can do, other than decline or risk it, and I'm not a girl of risk. The other thing is my diss. I have loads to do for it. Nuff sed!
Anybody got a solution? Something that stretches time or gives me a change to enhance my brain power and typing skills (after all you're only as fast as your fingers!)
Thats how I feel. I'm elated that I've spent so much time with Helen and that I got the chance to share with a youth group who listen to my profoundness! I'm also elated that Henry is going to be here very soon.
Two 'buts' - I have been given a date for an interview at Lincoln, its the 4th May, which is too close to my dissertation deadline for me to even give it a second thought. Do universities think that third years have nothing to do 4 weeks before exams start? Hello! Its frustrating, but there is nothing I can do, other than decline or risk it, and I'm not a girl of risk. The other thing is my diss. I have loads to do for it. Nuff sed!
Anybody got a solution? Something that stretches time or gives me a change to enhance my brain power and typing skills (after all you're only as fast as your fingers!)
Thursday, February 02, 2006
Southampton
I've been Wedding dress shopping in Southampton! It was a very brief experience, but I still enjoy standing in a white dress!! I only got to try on one, but it was a nice one!
The rest of my time here has been good, though I'd forgotten what it was like to rush around for a day! All fun, though I haven't done any work yet!
We watched Crash last night, weird but good, a little like love actually but more complicated and less love.
Back to Cheltenham tomorrow, and spending the weekend with Henry!
The rest of my time here has been good, though I'd forgotten what it was like to rush around for a day! All fun, though I haven't done any work yet!
We watched Crash last night, weird but good, a little like love actually but more complicated and less love.
Back to Cheltenham tomorrow, and spending the weekend with Henry!
Monday, January 30, 2006
Mixed emotions
A fair bit has happened this weekend. Henry and I viewed a gorgeous place where we can get married if we chose to, then I got back on Sunday and was saying goodbye to Ben who is off to India today for 5 weeks, before I knew it. Then I found out that Canterbury hadn't accepted me, so I felt really gutted.
It was one of those moments when the world drops from underneath your feet. Though it isn't the only thing I can do or the only place I've applied to, it was my preferred choice so I'm not too happy. But life goes on and at some point Lincoln will call and I will have to trek across the country for another interview. Or maybe not. My sister told me a story about one of her friends not getting on too well with GTTR. We shall see what is going on...
I think I have over estimated my ability. I realise that trying to cram secondary and primary education in one year is too much for me. Difficult for anyone. Especially me...
It was one of those moments when the world drops from underneath your feet. Though it isn't the only thing I can do or the only place I've applied to, it was my preferred choice so I'm not too happy. But life goes on and at some point Lincoln will call and I will have to trek across the country for another interview. Or maybe not. My sister told me a story about one of her friends not getting on too well with GTTR. We shall see what is going on...
I think I have over estimated my ability. I realise that trying to cram secondary and primary education in one year is too much for me. Difficult for anyone. Especially me...
Thursday, January 26, 2006
Exam stresses and strains
Exams are going well, thank you to those who send their good lucks and ask how everything is going. I'm good, two down, one to go. Genesis tomorrow lunchtime and then I'm finished and off to Malvern to discuss wedding things and the such. I'm looking forward to a weekend off! :D
Tuesday, January 24, 2006
The chocolate spread saga
I have got a real problem with people who steal. It is a horrible habit and shows how petty some people can be. What kind of person steals chocolate spread and doesn't own up to it? What kind of person goes behind someone's back to use something that is not theirs?
Someone is lying and I have no way of finding out who, because I don't trust the people I live with. It may seem trival but its the kind of thing that gets to me. I need a CSI!!
It's happened before!
Someone is lying and I have no way of finding out who, because I don't trust the people I live with. It may seem trival but its the kind of thing that gets to me. I need a CSI!!
It's happened before!
Monday, January 23, 2006
Nervous Laughter
This is the moment when I realise tomorrow is an important day. Just as I'm about to log off and shut down. There's not a lot more I can do. I have my first exam tomorrow morning and all I want to do is run away and hide!! The stress factor still gets me after years and years of doing this.
I hate the unknown. I can deal with stepping out in faith, but stepping into an exam room? That's where God really does hide His face. I don't know what's on that exam paper and hazarding a guess has got me in trouble before! There are a hundred things that could be on that paper. Argh! I have to stop! Though this is not the last time I will talk about exams it is the beginning of the trek towards graduation day.
6 exams, at least 15,000 words, 36 lectures (totalling 72 hours) and a Summer ball are ahead. I have 17+ weeks of hard work to finish my degree!
I hate the unknown. I can deal with stepping out in faith, but stepping into an exam room? That's where God really does hide His face. I don't know what's on that exam paper and hazarding a guess has got me in trouble before! There are a hundred things that could be on that paper. Argh! I have to stop! Though this is not the last time I will talk about exams it is the beginning of the trek towards graduation day.
6 exams, at least 15,000 words, 36 lectures (totalling 72 hours) and a Summer ball are ahead. I have 17+ weeks of hard work to finish my degree!
Sunday, January 22, 2006
"For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord."
Romans 8v38,39
This speaks to me, I don't know what it says to you, I don't know if you believe in God or that someone knew they would have to die to save a people that had turned away.
Would you lay your life down for someone? Someone you love, hate or don't even know? One person did.
What does love mean to you?
For me love is found in the things I do for others and what they do for me. Those who spend time with me when they know they have a few things to be doing, someone who speaks wisdom into my life, someone who makes me smile whatever is happening, someone who welcomes me with open arms no matter how stupid I have been, someone who forgives and forgets. All of this means the world to me, I know there are a few people that this applies to, I know one person who means the world to me, and they know who they are.
Love is mysterious, so is God and getting to know them is a journey. Unconditional love can be found, you just have to take the first step....
Saturday, January 21, 2006
Wedding dresses and exams
Thursday was wedding dress day - infamous, slightly crazy but a lot of fun. I understand what some women say when the find 'the right dress', you know you could live in it if you were given a chance! I'm not going to describe it because I am a traditionalist when it comes to things like that and I know Henry likes to read this! No he is not going to see me until I walk down the isle (some times I make myself laugh!).
Back to Cheltenham tomorrow and exams starting tuesday, the stress is increasing. I've got to pack today and do lots of work! Ekk! Going back holds a mixture of feelings. I get to see the people I've spent the last 2 1/2 years of my life with but I'm leaving my family. The next few months are going to be full of highs and lows. Elation from finishing my degree and sadness of leaving that part of my life behind. Umm... I don't know whether I'm looking forward to it or not.
Back to Cheltenham tomorrow and exams starting tuesday, the stress is increasing. I've got to pack today and do lots of work! Ekk! Going back holds a mixture of feelings. I get to see the people I've spent the last 2 1/2 years of my life with but I'm leaving my family. The next few months are going to be full of highs and lows. Elation from finishing my degree and sadness of leaving that part of my life behind. Umm... I don't know whether I'm looking forward to it or not.
Monday, January 16, 2006
Charlie's Angels! We're all grown up, we're much more stylish and definitly more insane now
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How pretty are we?
Christmas Day 2005. Henry, Andy, Karen, Jude, Mike, me and Eva
6 grandchildren plus one!
6 grandchildren plus one!
Wednesday, January 11, 2006
Revision, writing and a day in school
I'm trying to revise, I'm also trying to write my dissertation. But I can't do either when all I want to do is sleep!
I spent yesterday at my old school, looking around, and observing lessons. I was welcomed with open arms and remembered by more members of staff than I care to count. The weirdest thing was being talked to like an adult by my old Headteacher. She actually listened to me and I never once felt scared! Mr Berry, the head of sixth form is a gossip! Still exactly the same as I remember him! He managed to indirectly call me dull though! The RE department has moved and shrunk and apparently I'll have no trouble getting a job, and neither will Henry :D Hazzar!
I promise I will post some pictures of Christmas etc, I just have to get to Cheltenham!
I spent yesterday at my old school, looking around, and observing lessons. I was welcomed with open arms and remembered by more members of staff than I care to count. The weirdest thing was being talked to like an adult by my old Headteacher. She actually listened to me and I never once felt scared! Mr Berry, the head of sixth form is a gossip! Still exactly the same as I remember him! He managed to indirectly call me dull though! The RE department has moved and shrunk and apparently I'll have no trouble getting a job, and neither will Henry :D Hazzar!
I promise I will post some pictures of Christmas etc, I just have to get to Cheltenham!
Friday, January 06, 2006
7 things...
To do before I die...
Get married
Have children
Teach others
Learn to drive
Go to Rome
Run a holiday camp
Ride a motorbike
Things I cannot do...
Become a Bishop
Install double glazing
Get a first in my degree
Let go of the past
Look good in a poncho
Date another man
Tolerate rudeness
Things I say most often...
I love you
Henry
Will you shut up
Dude
Oi
Sorry
Yeh
Books I love...
The Bible
Introduction to the Old Testament
The shock of your Life
Man and wife
The Shining
The Stories we could tell
The time travellers wife
Movies I could watch over and over
The Lion King
Romeo and Juliet
Mulan
The Little Mermaid
Chicago
Moulin Rouge
Mary Poppins
All time albums...
Ultimate Kylie
X and Y
Take that greatest hits
OST My best friends wedding
Mariah Carey's Christmas Album
The Greatest Musicals
Kelly Clarkson Breakaway
People to do this next...
Dad
Mum
Henry
Ben
Mandy
Andy
Aimie
I challenge you!
Get married
Have children
Teach others
Learn to drive
Go to Rome
Run a holiday camp
Ride a motorbike
Things I cannot do...
Become a Bishop
Install double glazing
Get a first in my degree
Let go of the past
Look good in a poncho
Date another man
Tolerate rudeness
Things I say most often...
I love you
Henry
Will you shut up
Dude
Oi
Sorry
Yeh
Books I love...
The Bible
Introduction to the Old Testament
The shock of your Life
Man and wife
The Shining
The Stories we could tell
The time travellers wife
Movies I could watch over and over
The Lion King
Romeo and Juliet
Mulan
The Little Mermaid
Chicago
Moulin Rouge
Mary Poppins
All time albums...
Ultimate Kylie
X and Y
Take that greatest hits
OST My best friends wedding
Mariah Carey's Christmas Album
The Greatest Musicals
Kelly Clarkson Breakaway
People to do this next...
Dad
Mum
Henry
Ben
Mandy
Andy
Aimie
I challenge you!
Sunday, January 01, 2006
And New Year!
Very very good evening! Much better than last year, and I can remember most of it! The band that played were well practiced, and the food was really good! I've got a massive blister on my toe from dancing too hard!
Of course it was better than last year because henry was there, kissing me at midnight! Yeay, then one of the members of my old youth group decide to tell me that I'm getting married next year - which got a really funny reaction!
Of course it was better than last year because henry was there, kissing me at midnight! Yeay, then one of the members of my old youth group decide to tell me that I'm getting married next year - which got a really funny reaction!
Friday, December 23, 2005
Christmas!!
Oh 'tis the season - to be jolly, to go the wrong way down a one way system, to be offered an eye test on Christmas eve! Umm...how about NO!
Sorry there's been no picture, but once again my laptop decided to give up, as soon as the internet was turned off, so is in the process.
Dad, you did reconise me, but didn't say much about my hair!!
Sorry there's been no picture, but once again my laptop decided to give up, as soon as the internet was turned off, so is in the process.
Dad, you did reconise me, but didn't say much about my hair!!
Friday, December 16, 2005
Sexy, everything about me's so sexy!
I've had a hair cut! Yeah! I'll put a photo up as soon as I've done some work!
Dissertation is going well, as well as procastinating can do!
Dissertation is going well, as well as procastinating can do!
Thursday, December 15, 2005
The First of the 'lasts'....
There's a time in your life when you will do 'lasts'. Today that kinda hit me. As a house we've had our last christmas meal, which was good. Today was the last time I would tell the Christmas story to the pre-schoolers. Having done it three years in a row I have got very used to it, and they have got used to me. They sang me a christmas song, which was brilliant and I gave them chocolates! I cried on the way home - how sad am I?
One other thing happened today. Our landlord came over to fix a few things (very efficient!) and asked about Henry. When I told him that we were engaged he almost had a heart attack, as did I to his reaction! So he left with a smile on his face, he always enjoys seeing us!!
One other thing happened today. Our landlord came over to fix a few things (very efficient!) and asked about Henry. When I told him that we were engaged he almost had a heart attack, as did I to his reaction! So he left with a smile on his face, he always enjoys seeing us!!
Sunday, December 11, 2005
Christmas Dinner
One of four! The first was today, with my housemates, and it was gorgeous! Well done to Alex for cooking the turkey perfectly and bringing it altogether before henry had to leave! It was wonderful, I don't normally agree with using packets of food but this was good! Aunt Bessie, saviour for students!
The second one is happening on thursday with the girls from my course, if I can book it! The third is on sunday, with fusion, we're having X factor stylee kareoke, for which I am doing drinks (non-alcoholic) and the final one is on Christmas day with my famil and a very special guest - Henry :D. Oh and I'll add the last one on Boxing day, with close family, and Henry!
Yeay for Chirstmas!
The second one is happening on thursday with the girls from my course, if I can book it! The third is on sunday, with fusion, we're having X factor stylee kareoke, for which I am doing drinks (non-alcoholic) and the final one is on Christmas day with my famil and a very special guest - Henry :D. Oh and I'll add the last one on Boxing day, with close family, and Henry!
Yeay for Chirstmas!
Wednesday, December 07, 2005
A birthday worth celebrating!
Lisa with drink in hand, Alex with a smile on her face! Yes we dressed as builders! Says it all really!
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Birthday girl, Diane, how beautiful
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21 is an amazing age to be, we're pretty much all there at the moment. It has it's stresses but thats all part of life, and you deal with it in your own way! We tend to deal with it by celebrating a birthday....
The cake I made, with a little help from Alex... A mississippi mud pie that, although a little heavy, went down a treat!
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Do you want to go to University?
FCH in the snow! I'm not one to do advertising, but doesn't it look amazing?
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Here's a pretty good place! God said Wow at the same time I did, just as I walked on to campus, and saw the chapel in all its glory!
Tuesday, December 06, 2005
From a Different Point of View
I attended a very interesting lecture today. It was on the narrative of Joseph. I walked to the lecture singing every Joseph song I could remember.
Joseph is portrayed in the musical as being picked on by his brothers, but having done a course in the whole of Genesis, it looks very different if you read it with a little knowledge! In Chapter 37v3 it says about Joseph giving a bad report of the sons of the maidservants. Is he being deceptive, because he knows he's favourite, or is he telling the truth? Jacob's past isn't all that pure. Looking back at Chapter 27, Jacob poses as he brother to get his inheritance, after feeding Isaac! You can learn a lot about someones character by looking at their father! Next time you come across this story, look at it from a different point of view, you will be very surprised!
We also went out as a house last night for the first time in ages. We went out as builders and got lots of offers to paint student houses and do a bit of plumbing, surprisingly I was the only one who made it to lectures today! Bless them all!
Joseph is portrayed in the musical as being picked on by his brothers, but having done a course in the whole of Genesis, it looks very different if you read it with a little knowledge! In Chapter 37v3 it says about Joseph giving a bad report of the sons of the maidservants. Is he being deceptive, because he knows he's favourite, or is he telling the truth? Jacob's past isn't all that pure. Looking back at Chapter 27, Jacob poses as he brother to get his inheritance, after feeding Isaac! You can learn a lot about someones character by looking at their father! Next time you come across this story, look at it from a different point of view, you will be very surprised!
We also went out as a house last night for the first time in ages. We went out as builders and got lots of offers to paint student houses and do a bit of plumbing, surprisingly I was the only one who made it to lectures today! Bless them all!
Sunday, December 04, 2005
What a weekend
Luton was really good, going home was good too. I got to talk about weddings all weekend, from chocolate fountains to dresses! (Sorry mike for boring you silly on saturday!) I managed to get everything I wanted except the thing I actually wanted, now I have to buy wrapping paper for christmas, with just proves how dim I acutally am.
Lectures and Lisa tomorrow. It's diane's birthday and we're in full preparation mode at the moment. We're dressing up as builders, and I will have photos of everything by the end of the week for you!!
Lectures and Lisa tomorrow. It's diane's birthday and we're in full preparation mode at the moment. We're dressing up as builders, and I will have photos of everything by the end of the week for you!!
Friday, December 02, 2005
Luton!
Back I go!! There are four places I'm very familiar with now, home, cheltenham, luton and malvern. Spending the weekend in luton without my sister is going to be really weird. I've almost got no one to follow round like sheep for a couple of days, for the first time I'll be Henry's fiancee rather than Karen's sister! WEIRD! It's going to be a lot of fun though, cos I get to go home while I'm over that side of the country. I'm going to see if the magic fairy still lives at number 24!
Saturday is going to be a long day, but a fun one too! I've got clothes and wrapping paper to pick up - all related to christmas in some way!
I'm enjoying Advent, its been a lot of fun so far. Yes I have finished my Christmas shopping, so I can enjoy the reason for the season now, with only my dissertation hanging over me!
Saturday is going to be a long day, but a fun one too! I've got clothes and wrapping paper to pick up - all related to christmas in some way!
I'm enjoying Advent, its been a lot of fun so far. Yes I have finished my Christmas shopping, so I can enjoy the reason for the season now, with only my dissertation hanging over me!
Tuesday, November 29, 2005
Strange world
Something weird is going on in Cheltenham. Children are generally crawling the walls (three schools almost shut down because of 'riots') and the people living in our area are getting worse. Someone knocked in the back window of one of my housemates car today, just because she was blocking a track that leads to some houses. An over-reaction by any standards. That kind of thing is becoming more regular. Also we are getting mixed signals from lecturers in our department. The regulations for the university state that students must be within 10% of the word limit for any assignment submitted otherwise they face penalties, but lecturers are telling some students that they can go over the 10% and will not be marked down.
Pray for this town, it's becoming harder to live here. I'm definitely looking forward to going home..but then I always do!
Pray for this town, it's becoming harder to live here. I'm definitely looking forward to going home..but then I always do!
Monday, November 28, 2005
Ebay-ing
Yes I know it's not a word, but I had my first experience of the world of ebay. You must've been locked in an cupboard for the last 5 years or so if you don't know what ebay is, but just to refresh the memory of those who can't remember it's an online auction site.
I had my first taste of it today, bidding for a friend, and I can't see the draw. Sat in front of a computer, bidding for an item you've never touched? Only a picture, from a source that you've never met. Some find it exciting, I only find it frustrating and a waste of time! Go shopping, not online, but get all touchy-feely with what you want to buy!!
I had my first taste of it today, bidding for a friend, and I can't see the draw. Sat in front of a computer, bidding for an item you've never touched? Only a picture, from a source that you've never met. Some find it exciting, I only find it frustrating and a waste of time! Go shopping, not online, but get all touchy-feely with what you want to buy!!
Sunday, November 27, 2005
Love
It's a strange thing. We were asked the question - Have you ever felt love in any way? It's surprising the amount of people who don't immediately put their hands up or nod in a satisfactory way. Society attaches love to relationship love, eros, for those of you studying greek. Boy/girl, can't keep your hands off them love. Ok so I thought of Henry first off and had to be reminded that my friends, my parents and my siblings all love me, in one way or another.
So in fact we are all loved, by someone (probably more than one person) at any one time. One of the chain emails that goes around is 'someone is thinking of you right now', and then it gets all soppy after that, but it is true. Ok, most people find that hard to figure, but I don't. I know God always loves me and is always thinking of me. Even when I'm in the darkest place, hiding from the lamp on the stand ("Neither do people light a lamp and put it under a bowl. Instead they put it on its stand, and it gives light to everyone in the house" Matt 5:15). God is there, thinking of me, us. We are not alone (that is a tagline, but I don't where from). We ARE loved.
I was going to give my testimony, but there wasn't enough time, so maybe its not right for me to tell it just yet. There are things we all need to think about...
"You...may have power, together with all the saints, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge —that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God" Ephesians 3:17-19
It's tough being in this world, but God loves us to the ends of the earth, and that's when we are closest to Him!
P.S. No I didn't hand write it all, click here to find out why!
So in fact we are all loved, by someone (probably more than one person) at any one time. One of the chain emails that goes around is 'someone is thinking of you right now', and then it gets all soppy after that, but it is true. Ok, most people find that hard to figure, but I don't. I know God always loves me and is always thinking of me. Even when I'm in the darkest place, hiding from the lamp on the stand ("Neither do people light a lamp and put it under a bowl. Instead they put it on its stand, and it gives light to everyone in the house" Matt 5:15). God is there, thinking of me, us. We are not alone (that is a tagline, but I don't where from). We ARE loved.
I was going to give my testimony, but there wasn't enough time, so maybe its not right for me to tell it just yet. There are things we all need to think about...
"You...may have power, together with all the saints, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge —that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God" Ephesians 3:17-19
It's tough being in this world, but God loves us to the ends of the earth, and that's when we are closest to Him!
P.S. No I didn't hand write it all, click here to find out why!
Thursday, November 24, 2005
A bad night's sleep
Umm... I was woken up at 2am and kept awake for ages last night. I had to be up at 8am this morning, which is the earliest I have to get up during the week, and not having any sleep the night before I was not a happy bunny!! Tomorrow I have to get up at 5.45 to go to bristol to do some paid work! It's going to be loads of fun if I get woken up tonight!
Tuesday, November 22, 2005
Genesis
Give an account of the themes and theology of the creation narratives (Genesis 1-3)?
I started today, and am taking a quick break before doing more. I know you're asking, how can she get two thousand words out of that? Well consider that I've got to look at other creation stories along the way and there are about four different takes on the theology of genesis that I've come across, I know there are more too. I could get an essay out of just 'Discuss the theology of creation in genesis'. Don't forget it also includes the Fall of Man!
Argh, here I go again.
P.S. No-one has owned up to the chocolate spread stealing, none has been stolen since I told everyone though...ummm...what do I make of that?
I started today, and am taking a quick break before doing more. I know you're asking, how can she get two thousand words out of that? Well consider that I've got to look at other creation stories along the way and there are about four different takes on the theology of genesis that I've come across, I know there are more too. I could get an essay out of just 'Discuss the theology of creation in genesis'. Don't forget it also includes the Fall of Man!
Argh, here I go again.
P.S. No-one has owned up to the chocolate spread stealing, none has been stolen since I told everyone though...ummm...what do I make of that?
Monday, November 21, 2005
Chocolate spread, amongst other things!
Someone is stealing my chocolate spread... I thought I was safe, I was sure no-one else likes the stuff in my house, and generally people ask if they want something, but no. Someone has taken some and not owned up. I know I am unnecessarily stressing, but it is a luxury and I have lived with these girls for at least two years. I'm not angry, just upset that they didn't ask first.
It's all good otherwise. I keep getting asked what it's like to be engaged. It's like being asked how it feels to be older on the day of your birthday. I don't feel any different, because I've always felt like this. Ok happier than I've ever been before, but then I've felt that way since I started going out with Henry. So yeah, it's like normal.
I'm watching Taming of the Shrew, very good!
It's all good otherwise. I keep getting asked what it's like to be engaged. It's like being asked how it feels to be older on the day of your birthday. I don't feel any different, because I've always felt like this. Ok happier than I've ever been before, but then I've felt that way since I started going out with Henry. So yeah, it's like normal.
I'm watching Taming of the Shrew, very good!
Thursday, November 17, 2005
Giving Blood
I gave blood today, for the 5th time, though I actually have two donor cards so I probably won't get a new card just yet. Not that it matters, I always enjoy doing it and feel its the only worthwhile thing my blood can do (other than keep me alive)!! The staff are always wonderful and make the whole experience fun. Ok so if needles aren't your thing then you won't like it, but I promise you its a good feeling. Just remeber to press hard after the needles been taken out, otherwise you could have issues (like me, there's always one!)
Anyway, on with work!
Anyway, on with work!
Monday, November 14, 2005
Religious Education
What is Religious Education meant to do? What did it do for you? Can you remember what you learnt from time in Religious Education?
I'm ashamed to say I didn't learn a lot up to the age of 16 because it didn't make me think. GCSE RE, I found out today, is simple in comparision to Year 9 RE. How wrong is that? I feel very cheated! Ok so I only acheived a D but at least I turned up to the exam, which is more than can be said for some!
Macbeth on the BBC, worthwhile, I'll be tempted if they're going to bring out this series on DVD!
I'm ashamed to say I didn't learn a lot up to the age of 16 because it didn't make me think. GCSE RE, I found out today, is simple in comparision to Year 9 RE. How wrong is that? I feel very cheated! Ok so I only acheived a D but at least I turned up to the exam, which is more than can be said for some!
Macbeth on the BBC, worthwhile, I'll be tempted if they're going to bring out this series on DVD!
Friday, November 11, 2005
Annoyed
I'm ever so slightly annoyed at people who put up their defenses at the first mention of religion. Yes I have my view and so does everyone else, I'm not going to push you into believing anything, so stop assuming I will.
Christmas lights is another thing. I don't know if you've seen the winter lights thing thats been in the news. Crazy, Christmas has never been offensive, why should we worry about it now? Yes we are a multicultural country, but our roots are in Christianity (and Paganism a little) so lets celebrate it the traditional way!
Am I justified? I feel like i'm surrounded by sissies! People who won't stand up for their religion because they're worried about others, go far but don't go too far!
I totally realise it seems I've contradicted myself, but I haven't, think about it!
Christmas lights is another thing. I don't know if you've seen the winter lights thing thats been in the news. Crazy, Christmas has never been offensive, why should we worry about it now? Yes we are a multicultural country, but our roots are in Christianity (and Paganism a little) so lets celebrate it the traditional way!
Am I justified? I feel like i'm surrounded by sissies! People who won't stand up for their religion because they're worried about others, go far but don't go too far!
I totally realise it seems I've contradicted myself, but I haven't, think about it!
A weekend off
I'm chilling, I might do some reading if I get really bored, but I doubt that, actually I might do some out of the premise that I will feel awful if I don't do any. I'm going to have to do some reading out of the goodness of my heart anyway, I agreed to read the essay that was due yesterday (the one that led to the lack of sleep) written by my housemate. I'm getting in practice for becoming a teacher honest.
I'm going to see Saw 2 this evening, joy! Gore, gore, gore apparently. Umm...I'll let you know how it goes.
I'm going to see Saw 2 this evening, joy! Gore, gore, gore apparently. Umm...I'll let you know how it goes.
Wednesday, November 09, 2005
For all the wrong reasons
I'm tired because someone decided to do the washing up at 1.30am this morning, plus I was worried about finishing my essay. Dispite the rude awakening I have handed in my essay with a whole day to spare, now I'm going to spend the weekend relaxing and enjoying the wedding of rachel and ewan, with Henry and Helen. Its going to be fun. I'm going to do a little prep for the first chapter of my diss on friday and after that I'm stopping til monday!
Monday, November 07, 2005
Brain ache
I'm tired and upset, I'm also happy and overloaded with things to do. I've got an essay due soon and I'm more concerned about that than housemates who have issues and proof reading.
So as a prayer request (because its important)
Pray that the tiredness I am feeling disappears, that housemates communicate with each other effectively, that my essay flows from my brain and that I don't get ill cause I'm doing too much.
Thankyou
So as a prayer request (because its important)
Pray that the tiredness I am feeling disappears, that housemates communicate with each other effectively, that my essay flows from my brain and that I don't get ill cause I'm doing too much.
Thankyou
Sunday, November 06, 2005
Fireworks
They can be dangerous, and they can be fun. Take my sister, she burnt herself (dummy) and the firework that fell over this evening and tried to beat the youth leader (though didn't get to far), on the other hand, the firework display we did have was great, i've not stood in the freezing cold for ages and it felt great. Ok I can't breathe from all the smoke because it was so windy, but the food was good and the company was better!
Thank you to all of those who have said congratulations over the last week or so, its slowly sinking it, and church was hilariously funny this morning, henry was doing the telling, to people I don't know. I got lots of admiring looks and a massive smile from his scout leaders, who then told cautionary tales of their own wedding. The next 18 months or so are going to be interesting, thankfully I don't know that many married couples (the number though is on the increase), so I can't hear that many stories about flowers, invitations, dresses, venues, parents, in-laws, bridesmaids...maybe i can!
Thank you to all of those who have said congratulations over the last week or so, its slowly sinking it, and church was hilariously funny this morning, henry was doing the telling, to people I don't know. I got lots of admiring looks and a massive smile from his scout leaders, who then told cautionary tales of their own wedding. The next 18 months or so are going to be interesting, thankfully I don't know that many married couples (the number though is on the increase), so I can't hear that many stories about flowers, invitations, dresses, venues, parents, in-laws, bridesmaids...maybe i can!
Thursday, November 03, 2005
Tuesday, November 01, 2005
Word in edge ways...
Twice today I have struggled to get my words out because someone is talking over me. Its so frustrating because neither times were very productive i.e. most people talk over me to finish my sentences.
Good news is that my school placement is off the ground. I finally met the women I will be working with so I can gain some expeience in secondary school teaching.
Other than that, my day has been uneventful. I'm supporting two fusion nights and getting quite excited about fireworks on sunday evening, but before that I've got a graduation to attend and a fiance to spend the weekend with!!!
Good news is that my school placement is off the ground. I finally met the women I will be working with so I can gain some expeience in secondary school teaching.
Other than that, my day has been uneventful. I'm supporting two fusion nights and getting quite excited about fireworks on sunday evening, but before that I've got a graduation to attend and a fiance to spend the weekend with!!!
Monday, October 31, 2005
Unexpected!
Disneyland was amazing, Paris was even better. If you get the chance to visit, don't pass it by, I found something very special there and I would recommend it for anyone.
Paris holds a place in my heart and will do until I die. Why? I hear you all begging for an answer! I'm engaged to Henry Walker and it happened in Paris, on the third floor of the Eiffel Tower. 984 foot from the floor and some 343 km from home (well London at least) Henry got down on one knee and asked me to marry him.
I said yes, without a moments thought.
So now I have a Ruby and diamond ring on the third finger of my left hand, to proudly show anyone who dares ask what my half term was like!
Smiles all around!
Paris holds a place in my heart and will do until I die. Why? I hear you all begging for an answer! I'm engaged to Henry Walker and it happened in Paris, on the third floor of the Eiffel Tower. 984 foot from the floor and some 343 km from home (well London at least) Henry got down on one knee and asked me to marry him.
I said yes, without a moments thought.
So now I have a Ruby and diamond ring on the third finger of my left hand, to proudly show anyone who dares ask what my half term was like!
Smiles all around!
Friday, October 21, 2005
Fond memories
I've just been looking at my Dad's blog and he's got a photo of our time in Tanzania posted. Here's the link for the web page. There are some really interesting photos and my Dad has done a wonderful commentary as well!
I'm going to do some work now! And then I'm off to disneyland for a few days!
I'm going to do some work now! And then I'm off to disneyland for a few days!
Wednesday, October 19, 2005
Interesting trivia
For those of you who know how sad i am and how much I love spotting random things. I'm watching Starship Troopers at the moment and one of the troopers, Anthony Ruivivar, is in Third Watch, which shows on Channel 4 some times!!
I also know that the body produces two litres of saliva a day. I have lots of other random pieces of info in my head, but you have to get me in quiz mode to get them all out of me!
P.S. The acting is awful!
I also know that the body produces two litres of saliva a day. I have lots of other random pieces of info in my head, but you have to get me in quiz mode to get them all out of me!
P.S. The acting is awful!
RSC and trains
The Reduced Shakespeare Company are awesome!! I really enjoyed the eveing! They reduced everything from silent movies to Kung Pow! we even got a bit of the matrix!
I got pulled up on stage with Henry, we were told to do some shopping (walking across the back of the stage) and then a few were picked out for more specific roles. I was chosen for the role of Femme fatal! I've been cast as Sharon Stone!It was so much fun, the guys were really good!
Getting home was a nightmare! I know I've had worse journeys but this was ridiculous. I had to get two buses to get back to cheltenham. So stupid, and I had to pay over the normal price to. Complaining all the way home!!
I got pulled up on stage with Henry, we were told to do some shopping (walking across the back of the stage) and then a few were picked out for more specific roles. I was chosen for the role of Femme fatal! I've been cast as Sharon Stone!It was so much fun, the guys were really good!
Getting home was a nightmare! I know I've had worse journeys but this was ridiculous. I had to get two buses to get back to cheltenham. So stupid, and I had to pay over the normal price to. Complaining all the way home!!
Tuesday, October 18, 2005
Oxford
I've spent the day in Oxford, learning, hands on about the Oxford Movement (Victorian England). It was all very interesting, if slightly trying, stressed for all the wrong reasons. Over reaction is never a good thing, and I've seen a lot of that today.
Oxford is beautiful, if you every get to visit, if you have, you know what I'm on about. It's one of those places where you wouldn't dare kill a football or walk on the grass, for fear of spoiling the perfection. It's full of grand buildings and an incredible amount of history. I do love being a tourist, I've seen a side of Oxford most people don't.
I did feel stupid though, it has to be said. Oxford is not a place you can walk around without a few books in your hands!!!
Anyway, I'm happy and I will be out like a light in a few moments!!
Oxford is beautiful, if you every get to visit, if you have, you know what I'm on about. It's one of those places where you wouldn't dare kill a football or walk on the grass, for fear of spoiling the perfection. It's full of grand buildings and an incredible amount of history. I do love being a tourist, I've seen a side of Oxford most people don't.
I did feel stupid though, it has to be said. Oxford is not a place you can walk around without a few books in your hands!!!
Anyway, I'm happy and I will be out like a light in a few moments!!
Sunday, October 16, 2005
Answered
Many things prayed, many more answered!
God is good, most people know that. Take my Dad, he knows and my sister knows too. I'm a stickler for finding God in everything, from my housemates to the news I read every day (even in Sunday match of the Day, the Holy Trinity has just been mentioned, no joke!). It's hard not to see Him in the world we live in, but it is hard to see Him in the natural disasters that we hear so much about. So where do you see God? Is He good to you? Do you thank Him for all the things you see?
I'm going to do some thanking!
God is good, most people know that. Take my Dad, he knows and my sister knows too. I'm a stickler for finding God in everything, from my housemates to the news I read every day (even in Sunday match of the Day, the Holy Trinity has just been mentioned, no joke!). It's hard not to see Him in the world we live in, but it is hard to see Him in the natural disasters that we hear so much about. So where do you see God? Is He good to you? Do you thank Him for all the things you see?
I'm going to do some thanking!
Friday, October 14, 2005
Disneyland!
I'm going to Disneyland, Paris in 9 days, I am so excited! I'm going with Henry, so we will be like two big kids the entire week, and it's Halloween celebrations while we're there. Of course I will be praying for all the evil in the park!
I'm working, seriously, I've written something that resembles an introduction and now I just have to type it up!
Write a critical evaluation of two or more approaches to Religious education, showing their strengths and weaknesses
Joy! Any ideas!
I'm working, seriously, I've written something that resembles an introduction and now I just have to type it up!
Write a critical evaluation of two or more approaches to Religious education, showing their strengths and weaknesses
Joy! Any ideas!
Tuesday, October 11, 2005
Pretty in Pink
This is a picture of me at my 21st birthday party in Cheltenham. The celebrations lasted a little under 3 months!!
Sunday, October 09, 2005
Internet at in the house...oh the joy....
... And the pain. Here come endless nights of blogging, shopping and needless searching, playing games etc.... Now where did the spongebob game get to?
The little things in life. I've spent the day in Lincoln, looking at a colloege, with Henry (see below) for teacher training. Mucho impressed, they have a free gym and a wonderful new lecture centre. Problem? There are only ten places for PGCE secondary Religious Education. Scary, but worth while. Its a tiny college, just outside of town, but the Chapel looks so appealing and the CU meet in the Common room - which is huge!! I'm looking forward to applying there though it takes some 3 1/2 hours from Malvern!
If we get in I'm open to anyone staying the night before they have to be in Skegness (Spring Harvest or otherwise!)!!
The little things in life. I've spent the day in Lincoln, looking at a colloege, with Henry (see below) for teacher training. Mucho impressed, they have a free gym and a wonderful new lecture centre. Problem? There are only ten places for PGCE secondary Religious Education. Scary, but worth while. Its a tiny college, just outside of town, but the Chapel looks so appealing and the CU meet in the Common room - which is huge!! I'm looking forward to applying there though it takes some 3 1/2 hours from Malvern!
If we get in I'm open to anyone staying the night before they have to be in Skegness (Spring Harvest or otherwise!)!!
Friday, October 07, 2005
The first of many!
I am officially at the beginning of the end! Sounds dramatic doesn't it?
Well actually its a trifle scary. I had my very first dissertation meeting with my tutor (who else?) this morning! O my goodness! Am I going to go over my word limit or what! And when am I going to write it? I'm far too busy sorting out the internet for my house to care about writing a dissertation!!
We went out last night as a house, for a birthday celebration. But first of all we had jelly and angel delight (try it, you'll love it! Though I think its a 'marmite' food) plus presents and sparklers! Sooo cool! I have the best housemates in the world! Oo we also had pass the parcel! These guys can seriously read my mind! The theme was pink, and everything was pink, I'm not joking! It's a shame the nodding Jesus was dressed in white, but He does have a good excuse!
We got to the club and danced the night away! At one point I thought I'd lost some money, but God was gracious and gave it back to me! Forever Faithful.
One last thing (you know you love it when I ramble) a really cheesy but good thing (I know I can get the word for it, let me know please!)
Called to Relationship with God. God is a good
F aithful - God's loyalty to us is amazing
R ich - His love for us is fulfilling (not money - though He is!)
I ndividual - He calls us by name
E verlasting - Before and behind us
N ear - So close you can breathe Him!
D ispised - He doesn't always hang out with the 'right' people (think earthly, Pharisees and Jesus = lots of anger!)
Cool huh! Start thinking, How good a FRIEND can you be?
Well actually its a trifle scary. I had my very first dissertation meeting with my tutor (who else?) this morning! O my goodness! Am I going to go over my word limit or what! And when am I going to write it? I'm far too busy sorting out the internet for my house to care about writing a dissertation!!
We went out last night as a house, for a birthday celebration. But first of all we had jelly and angel delight (try it, you'll love it! Though I think its a 'marmite' food) plus presents and sparklers! Sooo cool! I have the best housemates in the world! Oo we also had pass the parcel! These guys can seriously read my mind! The theme was pink, and everything was pink, I'm not joking! It's a shame the nodding Jesus was dressed in white, but He does have a good excuse!
We got to the club and danced the night away! At one point I thought I'd lost some money, but God was gracious and gave it back to me! Forever Faithful.
One last thing (you know you love it when I ramble) a really cheesy but good thing (I know I can get the word for it, let me know please!)
Called to Relationship with God. God is a good
F aithful - God's loyalty to us is amazing
R ich - His love for us is fulfilling (not money - though He is!)
I ndividual - He calls us by name
E verlasting - Before and behind us
N ear - So close you can breathe Him!
D ispised - He doesn't always hang out with the 'right' people (think earthly, Pharisees and Jesus = lots of anger!)
Cool huh! Start thinking, How good a FRIEND can you be?
Wednesday, September 28, 2005
O my!
I am so annoyed. Once again my loan is floating in space somewhere, and its the second year in a row that this has happened, so now I have to draw on my savings to be able to live! Do you think God is teaching me a lesson in patience? The crazy university, my stupid (yes I'm from Essex) LEA and the SLC are all jointly to blame. It's got nothing to do with me, as the lady last year assumed it did. I've done my part. I've registered like a good student who wants her loan. I'm considering not paying back the money that the loans company have given me! Has anyone else had any problems? I doubt it! I know my house mates have got their loans, so why not me? Oh and I need an umbrella now, the weather is definitely autumnal which means getting wet more regularly than being dry! It's also dark all the time, it just makes me feel a whole lot worse than normal. I've also got fresher's flu. A nasty cough and trouble sleeping because of said cough. It's a head cold, great for when you're trying to concentrate in a lecture.
Speaking of which, I missed my first Genesis lecture on Tuesday cos I was sleeping...maybe I should mail my lecturer?? What a great way to start the year!
CU was good last night, loads of people. It's great when you put a positive spin on something. I got talking to loads of international students and there were loads of freshers, hopefully all will be at house party! We filled the end room in the chapel, which hasn't happened in a long time. I will be looking forward to this term so much. God is good. We've had visions of students filling the green outside the chapel and them all worshiping!
I'm ill but hey, I'm happy!
Speaking of which, I missed my first Genesis lecture on Tuesday cos I was sleeping...maybe I should mail my lecturer?? What a great way to start the year!
CU was good last night, loads of people. It's great when you put a positive spin on something. I got talking to loads of international students and there were loads of freshers, hopefully all will be at house party! We filled the end room in the chapel, which hasn't happened in a long time. I will be looking forward to this term so much. God is good. We've had visions of students filling the green outside the chapel and them all worshiping!
I'm ill but hey, I'm happy!
Thursday, September 22, 2005
There are better things I could be doing!
Other than blogging, but I'm not so there. I had a nice chat with the Chaplin, calmed some of my fears about the year ahead and the fact that CU has changed to Fusion now. I'm still not going to do cell groups though, but I am going to help out as much as I can with everything, I need something to do during the week! The next few weeks are going to be interesting. Freshers fair and all. Making sure I get involved again, rather than wondering what is going on!
Wednesday, September 21, 2005
Unimotion
It's started. Uni is almost back in full swing. Just a few more days and I will be a fully fledged thrid year who is not too concerned about what lies ahead. I've got a God who will look after me when I need it the most, something that has become a great comfort to me since I began here not so long ago.
So how does it feel to know that I will be graduating in the next 14 months? Scary but theres the thought of 'yes I can do this' floating around. I'm not far off, I'm certainly closer than I was 2 years ago when I sat in my first lecture, unsure of what to think about what was going to happen.
I'm happy, I think thats the main thing. I've got a great house, full of people who love me and I love them back. I've got a boyfriend, someone who has shown his committment to me in many ways and at many times, who loves me so much and I know that I love him. I've got a family who support me and encourage me and of course I've almost got a degree. I'm on my way to finishing and I'm happy that I'm here rather than anywhere else. I don't think I could cope in a different place.
Thinking about it I've been incredibly blessed since I started here. I've got a church and a youth group to enjoy and life for so all is not lost!
Pray that I find a suitible place to do my teacher training!
So how does it feel to know that I will be graduating in the next 14 months? Scary but theres the thought of 'yes I can do this' floating around. I'm not far off, I'm certainly closer than I was 2 years ago when I sat in my first lecture, unsure of what to think about what was going to happen.
I'm happy, I think thats the main thing. I've got a great house, full of people who love me and I love them back. I've got a boyfriend, someone who has shown his committment to me in many ways and at many times, who loves me so much and I know that I love him. I've got a family who support me and encourage me and of course I've almost got a degree. I'm on my way to finishing and I'm happy that I'm here rather than anywhere else. I don't think I could cope in a different place.
Thinking about it I've been incredibly blessed since I started here. I've got a church and a youth group to enjoy and life for so all is not lost!
Pray that I find a suitible place to do my teacher training!
Tuesday, September 13, 2005
A few things....
I've spent the last week or so just thinking! Good thinking, productive and questioning.
My first question, which has been bugging me for a good while, especially in my current situation, is where is God in your life? Now for Christian I can imagine the perfect answer being 'before me, with me and behind me, in all that a I say and do', but is this really the case. I can see in many people that God is something in the background, an after thought where 'I' comes first. In the world we live in it is difficult to say 'God and God only' - there are so many more tepmting things, friends, money, etc... It should be Bible, Church, Prayer and the Holy Spirit. I'm very blessed that I've spent a year understanding what God means to me, so I rely on him far more than some of my friends do and tend to go to him first when something is troubling me.
For non-Christians, or people of other faiths, I'm sure its a very different story, God is somewhat a mystery. Something they don't think about, something the are challenged by, something that plainly doesn't exist. What's your stance on God? I've been chatting about Alpha with some of my friends and one guy said 'I know I've got to sort my life out but....' I think God is important to him, but he's not sure how to go about finding out about Him! To everyone who reads this, what do you think God is and where should that idea fit into your life?
Secondly, Grace. My Dad and I have both read What's so amazing about grace? and he brought up a very interesting point. Does grace have a limit? If you get the chance to read the story of Ananias and Sapphira, you'll see that God was not too impressed with those two because they lied, He killed them because they lied. That was not long after Ascension Day, God was angry and he used force. What can we learn from this story? How can we learn? well the first is not to lie! And then look at the nature of God. Obviously that story is a one-off, but where are the limits of Grace? I know I lie, but I'm not dead, but I know I'm saved by Grace. Weird. Something to keep you going!
God Bless
My first question, which has been bugging me for a good while, especially in my current situation, is where is God in your life? Now for Christian I can imagine the perfect answer being 'before me, with me and behind me, in all that a I say and do', but is this really the case. I can see in many people that God is something in the background, an after thought where 'I' comes first. In the world we live in it is difficult to say 'God and God only' - there are so many more tepmting things, friends, money, etc... It should be Bible, Church, Prayer and the Holy Spirit. I'm very blessed that I've spent a year understanding what God means to me, so I rely on him far more than some of my friends do and tend to go to him first when something is troubling me.
For non-Christians, or people of other faiths, I'm sure its a very different story, God is somewhat a mystery. Something they don't think about, something the are challenged by, something that plainly doesn't exist. What's your stance on God? I've been chatting about Alpha with some of my friends and one guy said 'I know I've got to sort my life out but....' I think God is important to him, but he's not sure how to go about finding out about Him! To everyone who reads this, what do you think God is and where should that idea fit into your life?
Secondly, Grace. My Dad and I have both read What's so amazing about grace? and he brought up a very interesting point. Does grace have a limit? If you get the chance to read the story of Ananias and Sapphira, you'll see that God was not too impressed with those two because they lied, He killed them because they lied. That was not long after Ascension Day, God was angry and he used force. What can we learn from this story? How can we learn? well the first is not to lie! And then look at the nature of God. Obviously that story is a one-off, but where are the limits of Grace? I know I lie, but I'm not dead, but I know I'm saved by Grace. Weird. Something to keep you going!
God Bless
Saturday, September 10, 2005
Home Alone
What do you do when you've got a free house? My parents are away for the weekend, dropping my sister in her new foundland that is Cardiff and everyone else has friends or a job that they'll happily be doing and I'm sat at home, doing nothing. I was going to pack, but I did get a better offer. Moving chairs and the tv!
Moving chairs this morning took an age because the admin side of my home church has fallen very short of what is expected. In pure speculation, and tell me if I'm wrong, but surely thats what makes a Church run well. Organisation, a bit of love and a lot of wanting? Wanting to serve the Family as a whole, loving and being loved because you serve and oragisation so you can serve in the best way possible. A way that uses all your gifts and discovers more?
People who don't have to learn on their own are the luckiest people in the world. People who are discoving the Holy Spirit over and over are incredibly blessed. Those who can organise a church are amazing.
I know I am blessed, I got to see some long term friends in a church for the first time in a long time and I got so excited. It felt amazing and they were only there for a band practice!
Moving chairs this morning took an age because the admin side of my home church has fallen very short of what is expected. In pure speculation, and tell me if I'm wrong, but surely thats what makes a Church run well. Organisation, a bit of love and a lot of wanting? Wanting to serve the Family as a whole, loving and being loved because you serve and oragisation so you can serve in the best way possible. A way that uses all your gifts and discovers more?
People who don't have to learn on their own are the luckiest people in the world. People who are discoving the Holy Spirit over and over are incredibly blessed. Those who can organise a church are amazing.
I know I am blessed, I got to see some long term friends in a church for the first time in a long time and I got so excited. It felt amazing and they were only there for a band practice!
Tuesday, September 06, 2005
Many obsessions!
I'm beginning to enjoy killer su doku. If you don't know what on earth I'm talking about where have you been for the past year? Buy a Times (at 60p, thats not a lot!) and look on the back of Times 2, you will be surprised and blessed by the abundance of su dokus and other puzzles to constructively waste all your time with!
I'm at home at the moment, but as I keep mentioning, only briefly! I'm going to Luton tomoro, to see my wonderful boyfriend graduate. I'm looking forward to spending time with him and his family. I got my watch back from Next, after it broke on the first day I wore it, lets hope it lasts a little longer this time! I also bought shoes and books, plus an awesome Cd, by Hillsong. I've resisted them for so long, but I had to give in when I heard
'Cause I know my God saved the day / And I know His word never fails / And I know my God made a way for me...Salvation is here'.
Although I've just bought it I know its going to grow on me!
One thing I'm going to share with you is something that I really should do something about. Matt 6 v 26 -
'Look at the birds, free and unfettered, not tied down to a job description, careless in the care of God. And you count far more to him than birds.' (The Message)
There is a God looking after us who gives the birds abundance and wants to give us that abundance too! How exciting is that! I know is probably one of the first passages every Christian learns, but look at it! We don't even have to ask (though out of politeness we should). We can be careless in the care of God, there is nothing to worry about, God has a plan and He will provide.
All I need is you...All I need is you Lord...is you Lord...
All I need is you...All I need is you Lord...is you Lord....
Hillsong is taking effect!!
I'm at home at the moment, but as I keep mentioning, only briefly! I'm going to Luton tomoro, to see my wonderful boyfriend graduate. I'm looking forward to spending time with him and his family. I got my watch back from Next, after it broke on the first day I wore it, lets hope it lasts a little longer this time! I also bought shoes and books, plus an awesome Cd, by Hillsong. I've resisted them for so long, but I had to give in when I heard
'Cause I know my God saved the day / And I know His word never fails / And I know my God made a way for me...Salvation is here'.
Although I've just bought it I know its going to grow on me!
One thing I'm going to share with you is something that I really should do something about. Matt 6 v 26 -
'Look at the birds, free and unfettered, not tied down to a job description, careless in the care of God. And you count far more to him than birds.' (The Message)
There is a God looking after us who gives the birds abundance and wants to give us that abundance too! How exciting is that! I know is probably one of the first passages every Christian learns, but look at it! We don't even have to ask (though out of politeness we should). We can be careless in the care of God, there is nothing to worry about, God has a plan and He will provide.
All I need is you...All I need is you Lord...is you Lord...
All I need is you...All I need is you Lord...is you Lord....
Hillsong is taking effect!!
Sunday, September 04, 2005
Knee surgery
Ummm... not me, thankfully. Helen had her knee cut open on tuesday and had her knee cap put in the right place! Hopefully that'll make everything a lot easier in the future. She's having to other one done in 6 months. I've seen the screws that came out of her sisters knee and would not want that done to me! Although now I'm well versed in the ins and outs of surgery and care (cue a family member braking a bone!). I've seen the video too! Bone is very white and scar tissue is very fluffy! (I'm sure helen would love that discription of the inside of her right knee!)
I'm in Southapmton until tomoro afternoon, then life returns to normal for two days! I'm seeing Holy Smoke's soul survivor pictures in all their glory tonight!
I'm in Southapmton until tomoro afternoon, then life returns to normal for two days! I'm seeing Holy Smoke's soul survivor pictures in all their glory tonight!
Monday, August 29, 2005
Scout Camp
A week in a field, in a tent, with a boyfriend! Equals lots and lots of fun, a wellie full of mushroom soup, flour everywhere and one shower!
I enjoyed myself so much, I thought I never would but when you camp with 20 or so people who have the craziest ideas it becomes probably one of the best camps I've been to! I might even make an appearance next year. All the scouts seemed to love me! And the leaders were just as much fun. Henry was the star of the camp - his 'I'm almost a celebrity scout big brother survivor mole - get me out of here' game was awesome, a lot more fun (and messier) than anything I've done in a long time.
Who could imagine I'd be able to spend a whole week in a field in the middle of nowhere with no running water and sharing a tent with a few exploding bags!?! I did and I recommend you try it at least once (make sure you've got someone who loves you to guide you through it though (HENRY))!
So for the next week I'm looking forward to sleeping and chilling in Malvern and going to see Helen and her knees on Thursday for a couple of days. I don't want to say goodbye to Henry though :(
I enjoyed myself so much, I thought I never would but when you camp with 20 or so people who have the craziest ideas it becomes probably one of the best camps I've been to! I might even make an appearance next year. All the scouts seemed to love me! And the leaders were just as much fun. Henry was the star of the camp - his 'I'm almost a celebrity scout big brother survivor mole - get me out of here' game was awesome, a lot more fun (and messier) than anything I've done in a long time.
Who could imagine I'd be able to spend a whole week in a field in the middle of nowhere with no running water and sharing a tent with a few exploding bags!?! I did and I recommend you try it at least once (make sure you've got someone who loves you to guide you through it though (HENRY))!
So for the next week I'm looking forward to sleeping and chilling in Malvern and going to see Helen and her knees on Thursday for a couple of days. I don't want to say goodbye to Henry though :(
Thursday, August 18, 2005
Just a quicky!!
I'm off to Malvern in little over an hour. I get to see my boyfriend for a whole two weeks! I'm so excited! I'm a little worried about scout camp, but once I get over having to sleep in a field I'll be alright (I know most of you are thinking that'll be the day I get back!). I also get the joys of using chemical toilets and washing my hair in a bucket, if anyone has got Africa (or third world/developing world) memories, you know what I'm talking about! Thankfully this is a little different, but in some ways a whole lot worse (no tin roof, or walls) and a whole lot better (I don't have to eat goat!). I get to spend the time with some fab people though. Henry! (Nuff sed!) Jeremy and Becca - the loveliest people in the world, with their twin girls and some more dedicated (but crazy) lads, who have been doing this type of thing for years!
Anyway, It's going to be fun! :D
Anyway, It's going to be fun! :D
Tuesday, August 16, 2005
Tempting
I'm tempted to tell the whole world something that only half the world knows! But I think I'll keep you guessing...
If you already know my news keep it to yourself!
Ha ha thats got you going? Hasn't it!
If you already know my news keep it to yourself!
Ha ha thats got you going? Hasn't it!
Monday, August 15, 2005
I should be somewhere else....
Its that time of year again - Monkton Combe! I should be exhausting myself running around with 40 or so teenagers, learning from them and teaching them. But instead I'm sat at home blogging, preparing to host a BBQ this evening for lots of friends and few family. I'm about to go shopping for plates, cups and food, having spoken to some 20+ people about a small gathering! La la la! I'm so looking forward to it, knowing that I'm going away in three days to see my boyfriend for the first time in two and a half weeks! I'm missing him lots.
Its all good, nothing to report almost. I'm a 21 year old who actually can't wait to do her dissertation, looking at the effect women have had on the church since they were allowed to be ordained.
I've just spent the weekend with the youth that were meant to be at Bredon (previously known as Monkton) dicovering what it means to make poverty history (click the banner, a HTML is too much hassle!). I had a really good weekend and the video and photos are being put onto a disc so hopefuly you'll see some of them soon!
Its all good, nothing to report almost. I'm a 21 year old who actually can't wait to do her dissertation, looking at the effect women have had on the church since they were allowed to be ordained.
I've just spent the weekend with the youth that were meant to be at Bredon (previously known as Monkton) dicovering what it means to make poverty history (click the banner, a HTML is too much hassle!). I had a really good weekend and the video and photos are being put onto a disc so hopefuly you'll see some of them soon!
Monday, August 08, 2005
At home...
and bored. I've not done a lot since I got back to Billericay last Monday. I've let time fly really. Not bothering what happens, I can't even remember what i've done!
I sang in church for the first time in ages yesterday, I'd forgotten how difficult it is to worship when you're staring at blank faces. I got to eat chocolate though. Which reminds me that I saw Charlie and the chocolate factory yesterday. A bit wierd, a lot wierd. Tim Burton is probably the scariest man alive - his imagination is far too much for me to cope with!!!
I sang in church for the first time in ages yesterday, I'd forgotten how difficult it is to worship when you're staring at blank faces. I got to eat chocolate though. Which reminds me that I saw Charlie and the chocolate factory yesterday. A bit wierd, a lot wierd. Tim Burton is probably the scariest man alive - his imagination is far too much for me to cope with!!!
Sunday, July 31, 2005
Malvern
The joys of the boyfrined! I'm in Malvern, keeping my dear henry happy! Its all fun, I love staying at home for the weekend and just flaking out, I didn't get up til 6pm yesterday, summer school exhausted me so much. I had a good week and I'm having a very good weekend.
Church was fun this morning, St Andrews in Malvern is fun, they've had holiday club (80 children - very impressive!) recently, so we had action songs and lots of stories about the mighty God Sword - or Mighty God's word (by the end of the week - can you tell I've done this before!?) I really enjoyed the whole thing, some people less so!
Anyway, back in 'ricay tomoro, so no doubt I'll fill you in more fully on my adventures!!
Church was fun this morning, St Andrews in Malvern is fun, they've had holiday club (80 children - very impressive!) recently, so we had action songs and lots of stories about the mighty God Sword - or Mighty God's word (by the end of the week - can you tell I've done this before!?) I really enjoyed the whole thing, some people less so!
Anyway, back in 'ricay tomoro, so no doubt I'll fill you in more fully on my adventures!!
Thursday, July 28, 2005
Summer school
40 kids, in their home town, meeting students who are doing or have just completed their degrees and having a whale of a time whilst learning that they can go into HE no matter what their circumstances. These guys and girls are under-achievers, but they are clever kids, funny, on the ball and constantly winding us (staff) up! They al have potential, they all have their lights on upstairs, but the teachers (and the parents probably) have labelled them as no-hopers, guys and girls who would be better off as a shop assistant or mechanic, in a dead end job. Thats so not true, these kids have the intelligence and the ability to arugue their way to the top. Some many of them are intersted in the Uni, its unbelievable. That attitude is thanks to the team around me, we're all so positive and enjoying oursleves, even though the tiredness kicked in on monday afternoon and we're running on adreniline most of the time! We've only really got to know each other since monday but we're working and acting like we've known each other for years!
I would recommend doing AimHigher events to anyone who is currently doing a degree, we need to be aware that we can give teenagers hope, even if the government don't!
Just a brief aside (I'm being dragged kicking and screaming away from this!) Be careful what you publish on the web, you can hurt people without knowing what you are doing.
I would recommend doing AimHigher events to anyone who is currently doing a degree, we need to be aware that we can give teenagers hope, even if the government don't!
Just a brief aside (I'm being dragged kicking and screaming away from this!) Be careful what you publish on the web, you can hurt people without knowing what you are doing.
Thursday, July 21, 2005
Results Day
Just a little bit of fun! I've passed everything which is good news, but I know I have to work harder next year to get my average up by a couple of points. That means reading everything and not rushing the writing of an essay.
But for now I'm happy, safe in the knowledge that I can't do worse than a 2.2 unless I completely stop working! I'm just waiting for other important people to get their results and then I'll be even happier!
I have to pack today otherwise I don't get to go to summer school with my head on my shoulders. I'm going for a week so shouldn't have to take too much stuff with me but you really never know with these things!
But for now I'm happy, safe in the knowledge that I can't do worse than a 2.2 unless I completely stop working! I'm just waiting for other important people to get their results and then I'll be even happier!
I have to pack today otherwise I don't get to go to summer school with my head on my shoulders. I'm going for a week so shouldn't have to take too much stuff with me but you really never know with these things!
Tuesday, July 19, 2005
Burrff day!
Or Birthday as they say every where else.
Man, it has been hectic since I last wrote. The London bombings have happened, my boyfirend turned 21 and so have I now, I've been to two different churches and been across the country twice. I'm so tired but I've enjoyed myself. There's no end to the things I've been thinking about and I can't possibly write them all down in the 40 mins I've got before I go and lead a cell group (something I haven't done for a very long time).
Loyalty is one of those things, and so is worry. I'm loyal to many things, ideas, traditions, people. I've been thinking a lot about love too. These three things seem to be my life at the moment. And it makes me wonder what others a driven by. I know these three aren't in balance in my own life, but I'm pretty certain Love is at the top, by maybe an inch!
Things are good at the moment, really good, and I'm looking forward to the summer lots more than I was before! The 'main event' is out of the way and with one holiday camp cancelled I can concentrait on other things that are happening.
Man, it has been hectic since I last wrote. The London bombings have happened, my boyfirend turned 21 and so have I now, I've been to two different churches and been across the country twice. I'm so tired but I've enjoyed myself. There's no end to the things I've been thinking about and I can't possibly write them all down in the 40 mins I've got before I go and lead a cell group (something I haven't done for a very long time).
Loyalty is one of those things, and so is worry. I'm loyal to many things, ideas, traditions, people. I've been thinking a lot about love too. These three things seem to be my life at the moment. And it makes me wonder what others a driven by. I know these three aren't in balance in my own life, but I'm pretty certain Love is at the top, by maybe an inch!
Things are good at the moment, really good, and I'm looking forward to the summer lots more than I was before! The 'main event' is out of the way and with one holiday camp cancelled I can concentrait on other things that are happening.
Monday, July 04, 2005
At home...
Ok so now I am back at home, at least until Saturday morning when I begin my jet set lifestyle by traveling to Malvern! I'm looking forward to the next week or so, I've got plenty of things planned. Dinner and drinking mainly! I'm going to see INME next week, which will be good fun, though I know I'll stick out like a sore thumb - a little white girl, who knows only the pop culture that she's been brought up in standing at the back hoping she won't get crushed by bouncing boys! They are a good band, it just makes me wish I didn't have to see them with hundreds of boys who know how to mosh! But spending time with Henry over his birthday is the main thing - then he gets to come here and complain about my music taste whilst drinking! Birthday parties are the best things in the world! I am looking forward to all of it. It kinda of makes living worth while, knowing that I'm going to be surrounded by those people that I have made friends with over 21 years of life, and having that one special person stood next to me while everything goes on around me! I'm going to have a great time this summer and I'm going to do some reading for my diss too!
Wednesday, June 29, 2005
Funny life...
Ok so I thought that this training would be more practical than chatty, but I was very wrong! We are being taught classroom management more than anything else amd how to plan lessons rather than planning them. It's very difficult to listen to training that is not subject specific, how on earth can I put a maths example into an RE context...I guess I need a PGCE for that! And by far the most annoying thing - I can see from a mile off who could be a secondary school teacher and who can't! And who the most annoying people are! They are all lovely but Gloucester accents really get me!
Tuesday, June 21, 2005
Manchester
We got to Manchester easily, its getting around Manchester in the car that was the hard part! It's ok though, not like we're in reading or something (those of you who know Rob will know the story well, those of you who don't will just have to ask!). It's cool being this high up though, 4th floor, tiny windows (supposedly so no drunk or depressed people can chuck themselves on to the street!). Its nice and a bit of a maze, but fun none the less. I'm going to see where the nearest cinema is and we're going to see Batman Begins!
Monday, June 20, 2005
Financial stability . . . God works
My prayers have been answered in the most obvious way - I have been given so much cash its unbelievable! I know that faith works - my friends received the exact amount of money that they'd sent to Africa. To the pound! It will be used to do Gods work in the most awesome way - a place for homeless people will be secure and free from the worries of looters - something that happens regularly.
I'm also thanking God for putting a housemate in a foreign country with the Salvation Army. She needs to realise God again and be brought back to faith - I'm prayng this summer will be the time!
My exams went really well, so thankyou for all your prayers, keep praying that the summer will go as planned, some things are still up in the air!
I'm also thanking God for putting a housemate in a foreign country with the Salvation Army. She needs to realise God again and be brought back to faith - I'm prayng this summer will be the time!
My exams went really well, so thankyou for all your prayers, keep praying that the summer will go as planned, some things are still up in the air!
Thursday, June 16, 2005
I'm going home....
For less than a day, but its the thought that counts! There are so many people who want to see me its not funny! I've got some cleaning to do before I leave so I'll blog when I've got some time this weekend!!!
Monday, June 13, 2005
Stress takes its toll
I am not sleeping properly - I was so tired that I slept through an hour and a half of my alarm this morning! There is something very wrong about that, incredibly wrong! I'm far too stress abou my last exam tomorrow, I shouldn't be, I've seen the paper (at least thats the excuse that some people are making for me - you know who you are!). Thats not the case though, the exam becomes a lot harder when you know what the questions are - from my pov. 250 words is what I'm allowed to take in to the exam with me, which means I have the spend the time doing notes and then cutting it down into the final piece. It sucks really. And because I'm not getting the sleep and over sleeping I can't do everything I need to do before I make my trip back to essex on thursday!
ARGH! that seems to be a feature in my life too much at the moment, but how else can I describe tiredness and shock all in one? I'm also trying to cope with knowing that I will be here on my own next year! No third years to tell me how to do things! Just a bunch of guys who think that a smile (and a prayer) will solve everything! Sadly that is not the case!
ARGH! that seems to be a feature in my life too much at the moment, but how else can I describe tiredness and shock all in one? I'm also trying to cope with knowing that I will be here on my own next year! No third years to tell me how to do things! Just a bunch of guys who think that a smile (and a prayer) will solve everything! Sadly that is not the case!
Thursday, June 09, 2005
Yawn....
Revision is sooo boring, but I know I have to do it!
I have been doing it all day so I figure I can rest, I just want to get my next exam oer and done with, its one of those exams that anyone with any sort of Christian knowledge can pass, simple really. I've got to spend two hours tomoro evening writing about Christian ethics on various subject. I feel totally ill-equipped to do that but thats ho I've been feeling for the last few days about exams, God work in my weaknesses - He was really gracious in unlocking the information I needed yesterday! I was relaxed by the time I sat at my desk and the paper wasn't too hard!
So one down, two to go and then a whole load of packing to do, the summer is so crazy, but again God has been really good in giving me time when I need it!
I'm happy but bored with waiting. Patience is a virtue! (along with prudance, courage, temperance, justice, faith, hope and love)
I have been doing it all day so I figure I can rest, I just want to get my next exam oer and done with, its one of those exams that anyone with any sort of Christian knowledge can pass, simple really. I've got to spend two hours tomoro evening writing about Christian ethics on various subject. I feel totally ill-equipped to do that but thats ho I've been feeling for the last few days about exams, God work in my weaknesses - He was really gracious in unlocking the information I needed yesterday! I was relaxed by the time I sat at my desk and the paper wasn't too hard!
So one down, two to go and then a whole load of packing to do, the summer is so crazy, but again God has been really good in giving me time when I need it!
I'm happy but bored with waiting. Patience is a virtue! (along with prudance, courage, temperance, justice, faith, hope and love)
Tuesday, June 07, 2005
Toilet roll
ARRRRRRGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! Why can't people just take responsibility for things? Why can't they just get over themselves? As my Dad used to say 'Get off your high horse and drink your milk' Please Please Please! I've just about had enough and will be glad that I'm moving out in a week! Back to revision!
Sunday, June 05, 2005
I'm happy
God has really touched me ths weekend. He has spoken to me so much through everything - He is Big, He can be trusted, and there is a Kingdom that everyone is invited to! We watched King Authur and Bruce Almighty, I'd forgotten how funny the second one is!
I've sorted out my summer, right up until the start of September, but first I have to concentrate on my exams which start on Wednesday! I'm doing so many things over the next couple of weeks, I have to actually remeber to buy tickets for the journey home! Tum te tum....
I've sorted out my summer, right up until the start of September, but first I have to concentrate on my exams which start on Wednesday! I'm doing so many things over the next couple of weeks, I have to actually remeber to buy tickets for the journey home! Tum te tum....
Wednesday, June 01, 2005
I can tell you its not telling fibs!
Or revision!
I was told today that one of my housemates 'dobbed me in'. Apparently during the busiest weekend I've had since Easter, I didn't do any washing up. I seem to remember that I was out most of Saturday and Sunday, and on Monday I was finishing an essay that had to (but wasn't due to the same house mate) be handed in. When I was told all of this incriminating evidence I struggled to remember what I'd done over that weekend that meant I couldn't do the washing up! How wrong is that? I couldn't remember because I was that busy. The certain housemate was in an emotional stress of her own, so the washing up wasn't going to be done by her or the person comforting her (uh ummm...me!). The other person she blame wasn't even in the house (and hasn't been due to family commitments!).
My goodness, its like living in the Big Brother house! Who on earth would want to fight over the washing up and changing the bin? I know we all moan (and I know I do it particularly well!) but just get on with it, and don't think that someone else will do it just because you haven't!
AND finally (I promise), to add insult to injury, she's the one that creates the most dishes!
Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
Any way I can defuse the situation without going 'Oi don't tell lies, B@!*h!'??
I was told today that one of my housemates 'dobbed me in'. Apparently during the busiest weekend I've had since Easter, I didn't do any washing up. I seem to remember that I was out most of Saturday and Sunday, and on Monday I was finishing an essay that had to (but wasn't due to the same house mate) be handed in. When I was told all of this incriminating evidence I struggled to remember what I'd done over that weekend that meant I couldn't do the washing up! How wrong is that? I couldn't remember because I was that busy. The certain housemate was in an emotional stress of her own, so the washing up wasn't going to be done by her or the person comforting her (uh ummm...me!). The other person she blame wasn't even in the house (and hasn't been due to family commitments!).
My goodness, its like living in the Big Brother house! Who on earth would want to fight over the washing up and changing the bin? I know we all moan (and I know I do it particularly well!) but just get on with it, and don't think that someone else will do it just because you haven't!
AND finally (I promise), to add insult to injury, she's the one that creates the most dishes!
Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
Any way I can defuse the situation without going 'Oi don't tell lies, B@!*h!'??
Monday, May 30, 2005
Bank Holiday
I've managed to do the bear minimum this weekend, and I'm not joking! Its been great - I wasn't bored either!
We went out on friday evening with some of the girls from my course to 'That Mexican Place' and ended up in the Frog, after eating the nicest tuna steak ever!! We did some shopping on Saturday and he went yesterday afternoon.
I've got to find sometime to do some revision, currently I've got tomoro afternoon and the whole of wednesday, and thats it. I've filled up my reading week with things I really want to do - mainly entertaining others who are on half term! Its funny how things fall - the 5 weeks at Easter makes everything coincide!
We went out on friday evening with some of the girls from my course to 'That Mexican Place' and ended up in the Frog, after eating the nicest tuna steak ever!! We did some shopping on Saturday and he went yesterday afternoon.
I've got to find sometime to do some revision, currently I've got tomoro afternoon and the whole of wednesday, and thats it. I've filled up my reading week with things I really want to do - mainly entertaining others who are on half term! Its funny how things fall - the 5 weeks at Easter makes everything coincide!
Thursday, May 26, 2005
Blast from the past
My ex-boyfriend - with stupid floppy hair!
I handed in my last assignment today! I wanted to be out celebrating, but no-one else is, though I have been promised by Jamie that he will make it up to me! I'm looking forward to Bank Holiday, but before that Henry is coming to visit! :D I haven't seen him for three weeks so I'm really excited and seen as he's nearly a graduate and I've almost finished my second year we've got some reason to celebrate!
Definitely looking forward to the next couple of weeks!
I handed in my last assignment today! I wanted to be out celebrating, but no-one else is, though I have been promised by Jamie that he will make it up to me! I'm looking forward to Bank Holiday, but before that Henry is coming to visit! :D I haven't seen him for three weeks so I'm really excited and seen as he's nearly a graduate and I've almost finished my second year we've got some reason to celebrate!
Definitely looking forward to the next couple of weeks!
Monday, May 23, 2005
Sunday, May 22, 2005
One rather wet weekend
It has rained for the best part of 48 hours, I hope the river that runs past the end of our road doesn't flood (I doubt it but wonder!).
Its been a horrible weekend anyway. I didn't start Saturday particularly well. Woken up 10 mins before my alarm went off to a sobbing housemate - she'd done something incredibly stupid the night before whilst drunk. I had to calm her down and spent ten minutes in the shower praying for her.
Training was good. The people I'm working with are really nice, they've all got really good ideas of how we can get the children we're working with in July to understand how much fun university is. Came home and watched the second half of the FA Cup final - C'mon Arsenal! Penalties always get my so wound up!
Found out that my housemates great nan had died - quite a shock for me and her.
Dinner and then the Path, I'm not being really challenged by anything that is said, though Jamie (of Quench fame) did a really good worship session.
I had to leave early due housemate and her stupidity.
Sunday was good - two really good meals, one pub and one roast - I've eaten too much today and it shows! Now I'm just sitting back and reflecting on the weekend. One thing that struck me as I was walking though town after a long day on Saturday was the rainbow - read this to find out why
Genesis 9
12 And God said, This is the sign of the covenant I am making between me and you and every living creature with you, a covenant for all generations to come:
13 I have set my rainbow in the clouds, and it will be the sign of the covenant between me and the earth.
14 Whenever I bring clouds over the earth and the rainbow appears in the clouds,
15 I will remember my covenant between me and you and all living creatures of every kind. Never again will the waters become a flood to destroy all life.
16 Whenever the rainbow appears in the clouds, I will see it and remember the everlasting covenant between God and all living creatures of every kind on the earth.
17 So God said to Noah, This is the sign of the covenant I have established between me and all life on the earth.
(NIV translation, thanks to BibleGateway)
It hit me that we're loved and have been in a very special relationship since the very beginning - no matter when that was - it started and it hasn't finished!
We went on to talk about Covenants at the Path!!
Question - How much do you give? This week has been Christian Aid week and we've been considering how much Fusion (as a group and individuals) give as a sign of commitment to God. He gives back in abundance when you give! So think about it! Where can you give (to a charity or organisation) and how much can you give this week? This month? This year?
Its been a horrible weekend anyway. I didn't start Saturday particularly well. Woken up 10 mins before my alarm went off to a sobbing housemate - she'd done something incredibly stupid the night before whilst drunk. I had to calm her down and spent ten minutes in the shower praying for her.
Training was good. The people I'm working with are really nice, they've all got really good ideas of how we can get the children we're working with in July to understand how much fun university is. Came home and watched the second half of the FA Cup final - C'mon Arsenal! Penalties always get my so wound up!
Found out that my housemates great nan had died - quite a shock for me and her.
Dinner and then the Path, I'm not being really challenged by anything that is said, though Jamie (of Quench fame) did a really good worship session.
I had to leave early due housemate and her stupidity.
Sunday was good - two really good meals, one pub and one roast - I've eaten too much today and it shows! Now I'm just sitting back and reflecting on the weekend. One thing that struck me as I was walking though town after a long day on Saturday was the rainbow - read this to find out why
Genesis 9
12 And God said, This is the sign of the covenant I am making between me and you and every living creature with you, a covenant for all generations to come:
13 I have set my rainbow in the clouds, and it will be the sign of the covenant between me and the earth.
14 Whenever I bring clouds over the earth and the rainbow appears in the clouds,
15 I will remember my covenant between me and you and all living creatures of every kind. Never again will the waters become a flood to destroy all life.
16 Whenever the rainbow appears in the clouds, I will see it and remember the everlasting covenant between God and all living creatures of every kind on the earth.
17 So God said to Noah, This is the sign of the covenant I have established between me and all life on the earth.
(NIV translation, thanks to BibleGateway)
It hit me that we're loved and have been in a very special relationship since the very beginning - no matter when that was - it started and it hasn't finished!
We went on to talk about Covenants at the Path!!
Question - How much do you give? This week has been Christian Aid week and we've been considering how much Fusion (as a group and individuals) give as a sign of commitment to God. He gives back in abundance when you give! So think about it! Where can you give (to a charity or organisation) and how much can you give this week? This month? This year?
Friday, May 20, 2005
And the point of that was....
Some random has made a judgement based on what I study at university. I hope I bump into his sorry arse so I can show him how interesting and great I actually am! Have you ever made a decision based on what someone studies? I know that I try my hardest not to, not everyone fits the stereotype you give them - thog I have a feeling that guy does!
Anyway, back to my essay, I will get it finished - just 75 words until I'm inside the lower word count! Though I will probably ramble for a bit more than that! Just like I'm donig now in fact.....
Anyway, back to my essay, I will get it finished - just 75 words until I'm inside the lower word count! Though I will probably ramble for a bit more than that! Just like I'm donig now in fact.....
Wednesday, May 18, 2005
Essays!
Well jst the one, I'm slowly geting there. I've got 700 words to do, by friday evening. Not a lot else has happened.
We went out for Aimie's birthday on Monday night - in cow print! Lots of fun and got some really mean comments! Some people just don't know how to take five girls dressed up! Its so funny how people don't deal with it! Most of the girls complimented us, and the ones that didn't got their just desserts (from Alex!).
I don't have anything to write, I'm that bored and I'm that boring!
We went out for Aimie's birthday on Monday night - in cow print! Lots of fun and got some really mean comments! Some people just don't know how to take five girls dressed up! Its so funny how people don't deal with it! Most of the girls complimented us, and the ones that didn't got their just desserts (from Alex!).
I don't have anything to write, I'm that bored and I'm that boring!
Monday, May 16, 2005
500 words down...
..and I'm fed up already, but I know I'll get it finished, easy peasy! I've done most of the reading and now have to cope with seperating it into the subject areas that the question has mentioned!
I know I'll get it done!
I know I'll get it done!
Sunday, May 15, 2005
Beautiful one
You know when you find a song you really like, and grow quite attached to every note (ok so just me then...) and then hear it played by someone else - another band - live or recorded? I've had that experience twice today and both times the song has been murdered. Fair play to the people who were playing - its a difficult tune - but the ability to play it fluidly was not on their minds. I know most people will know what I talk about when I say 'Beautiful One' and some won't. If not let me introduce you to the world of Christian Worship songs. I encourage you to look for the lyrics and enjoy them, imagine it played calmly and at a pace, but not so quick you can't breathe between each line! I mean there's seperating notes and there's seperating notes!
Secondly, I now know why sport is so bad for me, I'm suffering properly after last nights jaunt at the YMCA centre in Cheltenham. My legs and right arm did not want to wake up this morning when the rest of my body did! Conclusion = don't do sport! EVER! (though I found out I'm good-ish at squash!)
Lastly, I am going to write mty essay tomoro! Shock horror! I'll fill you in as I go!
Secondly, I now know why sport is so bad for me, I'm suffering properly after last nights jaunt at the YMCA centre in Cheltenham. My legs and right arm did not want to wake up this morning when the rest of my body did! Conclusion = don't do sport! EVER! (though I found out I'm good-ish at squash!)
Lastly, I am going to write mty essay tomoro! Shock horror! I'll fill you in as I go!
Thursday, May 12, 2005
ooooo..when did that happen?
Look at this and tell me I'm not the only one who didn't know that this particularly large (multi-national!) company were based in my home town! Yes I am doing research for my essay, which I'm a lot happier about since my lecturer emailed me! By reading though the lines I can see what she wants from the essay and can probably start on Monday, rather than wait til tuesday - la la laaaaa, here I go!
Tuesday, May 10, 2005
Critial review my arse!
You know that horrible feeling when someone says 'The work wasn't up to the standard we'd expect'? Well I got that feeling today and then found out I got a 38 in my assignment for SO214, yes a fail - the second one of my uni career, and I thought I'd done really well (well at least a pass), but obviously not. The good thing is that I wasn't the only one, and I know that there are others in the smae position. A few questions I have to ask about this particular assignment -
How on earth am I meant to write a critical review in 1000 words?
How am I meant to do it without any set reading or any notes from the author on any further reading?
How am I meant to find the books when I'm not sure what the artical is getting at?
How am I meant to know what the psychological factors of this piece are when I have no knowledge of psychology?
Which lecturer has marked my work and how can they know where my knowledge is based, and mark accordingly?
The answer to all of these in some shape or form (but with a lot more words) is NO, a big fat obvious NO! It doesn't happen, for all the areas of a social study to be covered you need more than 1000 words, for it to have any proper evidance you NEED books to quote from and for the question to be answered you need to have the proper teaching. I am not an English student who knows what a critical review is and sociology is not hugely strong on disability!
Anyway, the next assignment is
'With reference to Sociology, Social Policy and relevant pschological factors, critically discuss how a family might be affected by the disability of a significantly impaired family member'
And oh gosh there's that word again...I've got a mountain of questions that I wanted to ask this week so I could write my assignment next monday, but now have to wait till next tuesday to get all my answers!
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
How on earth am I meant to write a critical review in 1000 words?
How am I meant to do it without any set reading or any notes from the author on any further reading?
How am I meant to find the books when I'm not sure what the artical is getting at?
How am I meant to know what the psychological factors of this piece are when I have no knowledge of psychology?
Which lecturer has marked my work and how can they know where my knowledge is based, and mark accordingly?
The answer to all of these in some shape or form (but with a lot more words) is NO, a big fat obvious NO! It doesn't happen, for all the areas of a social study to be covered you need more than 1000 words, for it to have any proper evidance you NEED books to quote from and for the question to be answered you need to have the proper teaching. I am not an English student who knows what a critical review is and sociology is not hugely strong on disability!
Anyway, the next assignment is
'With reference to Sociology, Social Policy and relevant pschological factors, critically discuss how a family might be affected by the disability of a significantly impaired family member'
And oh gosh there's that word again...I've got a mountain of questions that I wanted to ask this week so I could write my assignment next monday, but now have to wait till next tuesday to get all my answers!
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
Sunday, May 08, 2005
10,458 words, which is 59 pages!
And its not quite finished, is it Helen!?! Wow! Can you imagine having your name on the front of, what seems like, such a large document! That will be put into storage and used by RS and Theology students doing other assignments?? I can't but in 52 weeks I will be doing the final touches for my dissertation - but as yet I haven't got a book list! La la laaaaaaaa!
Life goes on, I'm feeling sadness of not seeing Henry for another 3 weeks - until I have my CHeltenham birthday party. My, my how time flies, I'll have finished all of my course work the next time i see him and will be well on the way to doing three exams and completng my second year!
Life goes on, I'm feeling sadness of not seeing Henry for another 3 weeks - until I have my CHeltenham birthday party. My, my how time flies, I'll have finished all of my course work the next time i see him and will be well on the way to doing three exams and completng my second year!
Thursday, May 05, 2005
Cakes and chocolate!
I've been baking, actually baking, and have the photos to prove it (on my phone!). I'm so proud of the achievement. Its very rare that I do anything other than 'cook from scratch' i.e. fresh meat and a jar of sauce! but this really was something from scratch! Museli and Honey cookie and choclate nests! We had a blow out earlier, so did the prep in the light of a few candles! Now all I've got to do is find some time to sleep and clean up the mess we made (not too much thankfully!), Jane will be so proud of us!
I also got my diss outline today, and the most awesome topic! I'm really excited though quite worried by the amount of stress its going to cause! I've seen Helen go through writing hers and it'll be interesting to see how I cope with having 50 pages to proof read this time next year! 10,000 words here I come! 'The Biblical pros and cons of the ordination of women' I'm so excited - thanks to Helen, who, although she can preach a congregations socks off, she thought of this title a year too late! Thankyou dude!! Love you!
I also got my diss outline today, and the most awesome topic! I'm really excited though quite worried by the amount of stress its going to cause! I've seen Helen go through writing hers and it'll be interesting to see how I cope with having 50 pages to proof read this time next year! 10,000 words here I come! 'The Biblical pros and cons of the ordination of women' I'm so excited - thanks to Helen, who, although she can preach a congregations socks off, she thought of this title a year too late! Thankyou dude!! Love you!
Wednesday, May 04, 2005
Oh well...
Thats my attitude to everything at the moment...oh well - I missed prayer breakfast this morning, I didn't see two of my kids at work, I haven't done any of my essay yet. Oh well, life goes on, I'm waiting on the phone for Orange to pick up, I've got to get this media message problem sorted out, someone, somewhere is sending the same message to my sister, over and over! Thankfully technical support is free soI don't have to worr about spending 10 mins to a premium number!
Right on with my essay, 600 words tonight and 600 tomorrow, then I have to so Sociology and I'm finished, til exams roll around!
Ooo Maroon 5!
Right on with my essay, 600 words tonight and 600 tomorrow, then I have to so Sociology and I'm finished, til exams roll around!
Ooo Maroon 5!
Tuesday, May 03, 2005
Maybe I was wrong!
Sorry to those who got excited by the prospect of Helen touring, she had a go at me about it! Next time I'll ask her before I write anything!! (Uh huh! ;) )
Today has been ok, I'm wiped out though, I fell asleep earlier without warning, I thought I'd have a 20 min power nap, but it turned into an hour! I'm still really exhausted, though unable to sleep! Which is stupid...I get so annoyed at myself when I do that!
Looking back over the weekend, I realise how much God was on our side the whole time. We were given time to see Helen's Dad and Sarah and Baz weren't too bad when we got back from shopping - they are actually a really funny couple, and althoughI shouldn't, playing them off against each other is sooo much fun!! We did have a real laugh and Val is so cool! In the last 5 minutes of the weekend it absolutely tipped it down, the second time it had rained, but the first time to any great extent! There are so many things to be tankful for - including the addition of four new members to Fusion and a happy house. I managed to do all the washing up today - everyone is ill or busy, so I shifted my schedule to make sure we had plates! I'm up on my word count so I should have feminist theology out o the way by thursday, and then its on to socially and psychologically constructed ideas of disability! BLEURGH!
Prayer breakfast in 6 1/2 hours!
Today has been ok, I'm wiped out though, I fell asleep earlier without warning, I thought I'd have a 20 min power nap, but it turned into an hour! I'm still really exhausted, though unable to sleep! Which is stupid...I get so annoyed at myself when I do that!
Looking back over the weekend, I realise how much God was on our side the whole time. We were given time to see Helen's Dad and Sarah and Baz weren't too bad when we got back from shopping - they are actually a really funny couple, and althoughI shouldn't, playing them off against each other is sooo much fun!! We did have a real laugh and Val is so cool! In the last 5 minutes of the weekend it absolutely tipped it down, the second time it had rained, but the first time to any great extent! There are so many things to be tankful for - including the addition of four new members to Fusion and a happy house. I managed to do all the washing up today - everyone is ill or busy, so I shifted my schedule to make sure we had plates! I'm up on my word count so I should have feminist theology out o the way by thursday, and then its on to socially and psychologically constructed ideas of disability! BLEURGH!
Prayer breakfast in 6 1/2 hours!
Sunday, May 01, 2005
The Noise!
Southampton rocks!!! Helen knows it and Holy Smoke know it! We have reached so many people this weekend. 30+ cars washed on saturday, endless ballet mums fed, so much litter picked (including a tool box and an exercise bike!) and one 'Noise' service (I sang in a band for the first time in ages!). God has provided, from buckets to words, friendships and leadership! Helen is a natural born preacher and deserves to be put on any preaching rota (available to tour I think!!). Tere are so many things that have happened, from James the tea lady, Michael being chained to the sink (almost), Eren and her craziness, everyone doing cards, Gav's beatboxing, and the willingness of Holy Smoke to do everything! We've found some really good links and uncovered some friendships! ;)
Bank Holiday tomorrow, I'm looking forward to a lie-in and some shopping!
God is so good, the last weekend has been so awesome and beyond human joy! A whole weekend of joy, going to bed tired but happy!
Bank Holiday tomorrow, I'm looking forward to a lie-in and some shopping!
God is so good, the last weekend has been so awesome and beyond human joy! A whole weekend of joy, going to bed tired but happy!
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